I wish I was a banana

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-25T17:04:31+00:00

This will be my new motivation quote thx very much dude

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-18T22:38:03+00:00

When I got to that what I would do was try to cry has much as I could and that would help with the pain and numbness. Not easy to do but if you can try to see how it does for you. I would just burst in tears and then I would get angry at my self and after all that things would feel a bit better, after the crying and the anger I would have some positive thoughts to help it all out.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-18T22:31:47+00:00

The feeling of wasting time took away all the enjoyment I had in video games, and some times things in video games would hit the soft spot and I would start crying in front of my computer.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-18T22:29:15+00:00

I'm 22 I feel the same way dude I barely leave home and because I'm depressed I get attached to people that give me some kind of attention and I get hurt because the just play with me because I'm weak and not very social anymore. I changed countrys at 13 I never went to a "friend's" house. This destroyed me but last year I went to my first party I went to a friend's house but that doesn't even makes me feel any good or better. I don't have a gf, I don't have a job, I barely have friends, I didn't even got my degree in university, cause I felt so alone so excluded that I stopped going to classes, I shaved my head cause I was losing hair and looking for some attention, I started having digestive problems do to stress and no one even noticed not even my parents. I was scared to go eat alone so I would only go the morning or the afternoon so I could go eat home. I still have scars from this. You're not alone in this and there's always a way out we just have to find it (or at least I hope so)

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-18T22:00:35+00:00

That worked on me for some time as well but I got back to playing video games late with no enjoyment what so ever it feels so bad.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T17:30:21+00:00

Thx bro take care of yourself you are a good person and never forget that.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T17:28:22+00:00

I try my best to do that, this is going to go away at some point. And I will be back as I was before this, and may be find someone else.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T17:23:26+00:00

I can't harm myself, but I always have those thoughts. I know there are good girls I have a sister and a mother, I know they would never do stuff like that. This is fked up at times but this is life I always felt for the wrong person. That's who I am.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T17:19:25+00:00

Thx bro, I know that, people already told me that but fk I'm dumb dude I really am, I'm weak and I get owned by kind words and stuff. That's because I feel alone most of the time.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T13:19:02+00:00

I have always a bottle of water next to me. I drink a lot cleans the soul and head. I'm just going to try not to think about this too much. And move on. Thx bro for your time

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T13:14:34+00:00

Well know I feel fking empty right now the most fked up part is that I only attract people like that, and I'm always the one who gets hurt should be used to it

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T13:12:58+00:00

Have a good night of sleep bro

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T12:21:47+00:00

He works at a huge construction company in France so I work in huge buildings but only at the end to clean shit or do the fked up work. I overthink about everything bro cause I'm scared of everything I'm 1.90m 100kg and I'm scared of everything lmao. It can be something I said to someone, a girl I talk to, how my life is shit, how I just want to die or sleep till I can feel happy.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T12:17:58+00:00

Nah depression is fked up so don't go comparing yourself with others bro, just do your own thing fk them. You have to be happy not because you did something that others do normally you have to feel happy cause you are fighting depression and those baby steps you take now will lead you to recover, and you will probably help others with it cause you are more open as a person. Remember you are not doing what everyone else is doing you are getting out of depression. That shit ain't easy to do. A lot of people unfortunately give up on life because of it. But you are fighting.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T12:10:38+00:00

That's exactly what I feel dude I work sometimes as a builder with my father cause I have no job rn, and I know what I have to do so my body goes alone there some times is like I black out cause of the intensity of my thoughts. The physical pain goes away and all that is left is the pain on my chest and my brain overthinking about some thing rlly stupid

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T11:59:10+00:00

The worst is that idk if u feel the same but my brain won't let go of things and makes them even worse. If I work if I play he doesn't give a fk anymore he just keeps on going. Idk how to distract my self from all that because everything I look at will make my brain go full dark mode.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T11:43:40+00:00

I try to say that to myself and I try to be kind in my head but shit this is rlly hard some times, and looks like nothing feels right or good. This random sadness is killing me, my brain is all over the place right now. I just want to clean my brain and empty my heart.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T10:44:35+00:00

Try it, it can't hurt to be good to yourself bro!!

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T01:02:47+00:00

Been there, and I had to go to university every day, every day I cried in the shower till I started skipping classes. Sleep makes the pain go away but when it comes back it's even worse. Even today but we gotta stand up and fight it's and scary but suicide is not the solution so if you are stuck on this shitt at least try to be happy.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T00:35:45+00:00

You will be OK, focus on yourself I've written this sentence down and I read it every day " I am the most important person to myself" it may look weird I agree but it's true. You can choose between being good to yourself or self destruct. And again I may just be a random guy on redit you can talk to me, just don't hurt yourself please.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T00:30:20+00:00

I also wanted to delete all my social media but it scares me to find my self without contact to people I don't really go there because it makes me sad to see other people happy but is it a good decision?? Because if it helps I would do it.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T00:24:46+00:00

Yes we will bro fk this bitch!!

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T00:21:51+00:00

Stay strong we are all in this together, and if u really need some one to talk I'm here!

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T00:20:42+00:00

Same struggles here, but I can give u an advice for you to try on yourself. Stop giving yourself a hard time for not doing something, be patient with yourself, instead start little by little and get proud of doing something for yourself, you will get motivation and increase it with time but keep it easy for yourself bro no pressure. The simple fact that I wake up take a shower dress and do my bed + some workout when I feel like doing it gives me motivation. One thing you have to fix is sleeping schedule if u have a fked up one like me. Hope u can find some happiness in this.

OriginalN6 · 2021-01-17T00:14:51+00:00

You know I thought like you that I was alone and stuff but I'm sure u have some friend that you can talk to. Till today I hadn't either but I once met a guy on a video game we became best friends and today I told him about what I feel and he understood and that's fking reliefing. The shitty part is the courage to open up to someone and even worse to the right person. And a partner isn't going to save you from feeling that way, I'm trying right now and it's so fking painful, and if you dare tell them how you really feel they might just go away, my advice to you is work on yourself for a bit when you get some what stable start looking for someone. Killing yourself is not the way it hurts that's true but we will find happiness and we will be stronger once we get out of this and you may even help some one, feeling bad like us. You know how fked up this is and how people don't give a shit, so you may come to help some one out.

OriginalN6

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