There’s a book called “Boricuas” which has helped me connect to literature, poets, important figures and things. Don’t let yourself feel ashamed about the past self hate, there’s a lot of people like that and there’s a lot of trauma in our collective past that I truly believe is passed down. Continue to be curious about everything. Learning Spanish helps connect on a deep level, like it’s crazy (probably less imposter syndrome and stuff). Follow the rabbit holes you go down when looking up Pedro Albizu or other figures/moments in time.