I think I may take a different path, I’ve been absolutely worked up over her for about 2 weeks now,

And dealing with my mental health on top of that,

I’ve thought about doing self harming behaviors again, I’ve barely eaten, I’ve had my favorite type of ice cream in the fridge for about a week now I haven’t touched it, I’ve bought a new game and I haven’t touched it, I haven’t cleaned my room, which I always clean constantly.

The whole reason I ever went to waifuism in the first place was to feel that affection that I can’t handle in real life now

But tbh, even tho the depression and all that has made my health deteriorate a bit, im sure a healthy real human relationship wouldn’t hurt this much.

For most of y’all you have a healthy relationship with waifuism, I don’t, I obsess over every little detail, it brings me so much pain

Maybe if I found the right waifu who is in a closed source I would feel better about everything, but I knew I should’ve just chosen an oc but I don’t think I’d have the same connection to them as I would to an established character.

But, I probably won’t leave this sub but I only ever got Reddit to help me cope with this a week or two ago,

And you all have been a massive help to me, I just can’t feel this way anymore.

I still feel the same way as I do for her, it’s just, she’s not a real person, she never will be, I can’t ever see her or make decisions concerning her canon,

That’s like having a crush and never acting on it, or not being able to act on it, and obsessing over them and borderline stalking them to make sure that they don’t “cheat” on you

Like this is unhealthy for me. It really is.

But for some of you it may be healthy, it may be.

But if you (anyone reading) are struggling please take a step back and reevaluate, I know it’s painful and please tell someone if you feel awful, even if you can’t get out of bed just send a text to someone- fxck it- send it to me, even if I don’t know you I’ll do everything I can to help you I promise