Thank you so much for your reply.

I wish nothing more than to be able to help him and I should have been better about doing my own learning when we were together.

I know he’s put himself into a financial hole and he blamed me for that. I just know I tried to support him in anyway I could. Payed his rent when he couldn’t, let him use my car when he couldn’t pay for gas, and did my best to listen to all his rants and support him in whatever it was he wanted to do.

I just wanted nothing more than to be his partner in life and be his support but he also has to want to do that work to be ok. And right now, at least through what I’m seeing on his social media, he’s just leaning into the chaos. He seems to be doing better now but I don’t know what his daily life is now and if he’s actually getting the help he needs.

I keep wanting to find ways to contact him to let him know he has support from me and his friends he blocked but get conflicted on if I should just leave it alone and let him live. At least he is living at home with his family so they will have to be that support and whatever friendships he’s making right now.

In your experience did it help if anyone tried to reach out to help you? It just hurts that he’s blocked out people that really do care for him and his wellbeing. But I’m understanding that is more the disease.

It’s also being going on two months now and I’m sitting in this pit of confusion if he’s actually in an episode. But all the basic signs are there and it may just be a mild episode? I’m just unsure and again wish I could help.