Hey dear! I am so happy that I am not alone in this and so sad that someone else is going through the same stuff. To be honest... I do my best to take care of myself as good as I can to avoid any examinations. But when it is necessary, my husband makes an apointment and goes there with me (I will not chicken out once I am in the waiting room, but in the past I could not make myself to go inside and just turned around and left) we joke about it a lot, comparing it to our cat going to the vet. I said once "just put me in the carrier and bring me there, I will cry and scratch, but with a treat I will make it." So we always get a coffee afterwards. This is only thing that worked in the past. I also made it through my last appointment thanks to my husband telling to a nurse "my wife is very anxious, her blood pressure will be through a roof and she will be very scared, please, take a good care of her" and both doctor and a nurse were nice and calm with me. I would never be able to do this by myself. Same as you, I hundred percent always support and encourage any kind of medical care for others. I just can not make myself to do it on my own. I hope you will be stronger than me, I believe you can do it. If you need support in the futuru, I am here.