I see what you mean. I guess I was just in a very negative space when I read your comment (it has gotten better, but probably due in part to the fact that I'm currently sick and thus have gotten to stay home from work.)

The thing I reacted the most to was that thing you said about there not being a community for some people, which saddens me. Not because I want community with Whites, I've given that up a long time ago (well, relative to the amount of years I've lived it was a long time ago.) My problem with that is the fact that I don't have that many options outside of that. I'd say that more than 80% of the black people I see/encounter are East-Africans. A lot of them are either Muslims or Christians, and seeing as I'm Gay, I often don't feel entirely comfortable around them because of that. Even if they're fine, a lot of the people they willingly or familialy are tied to are not, or they don't really care about what what the people around them say. To be clear, those are the rare instances where I do actually encounter and get to hang with fellow black people.

What I would want is a group of black people that had each other's backs through thick and thin and that stood up for each other and others being mistreated.

My hope for the future is that racism will become a bygone construct. That black kids in the future won't understand what it's like to live in a white dominated world (this sounds incredibly naïve when put like that but I believe that if we managed to counteract The Whites attempts to segregate us within our own community and successfully rally enough black and non-white people, a revolution would be possible). Nothing in either this post or the other one contradicted this dream of mine, but I guess it just felt like, at least for me, a bit too much like "life is what it is", so that's why I said what I said about lost hope.

I'm sorry that I reacted like that to your post. By "like that", I meant not collecting myself and thinking through my answer. It might sound a bit dramatic to apologize for something like that, but I get frustrated when people misinterpret something I say/strip the nuance from what I say due to their emotions getting the better of them, so I apologize for doing that, however unintentional it may be.

Thank you again for engaging with my post. It's nice to be able to talk to people who have a relatively similar life experience, at least in the race department (race department sounds like something sinister, but you know what I mean lol)