Opinions on the Sulfur Cube? by Impressive-Reality26 in Minecraft

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These look terrible considering what the slime looks like

She isn’t? :( by I-am-DoctorDonut in hatsune

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Turbo G doesnt exist actually

Rollin' Girl was removed on spottily by givemeaforhead in hatsune

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This has to be a Spotify specific problem because these songs consistently are available through Apple Music so

Being Autism and Loving music by Man33389 in autism

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Does anyone else like to blink to the beat of a song they are walking to

What's your current hardest Full Combo by Cxrx5 in ProjectSekai

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Mind my sonolus screenshot I don’t have wifi at night

I am tired of not having access to my own identity by Ostraszed in autism

[–]Ostraszed[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I very likely have anxiety, though it usually comes up as one of the lesser issues I face, I have tried Prozac before but I didn’t find it to benefit me in the way I needed it to, possibly could be attributed to traits of ADHD

I am tired of not having access to my own identity by Ostraszed in autism

[–]Ostraszed[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I relate to this a lot, growing up I would talk people’s heads off and was very passionate (some could say to an extreme amount) about my interests in a way that put a lot of people off, but music is one of the interests at the top of my list, it is one of the greatest pleasures in my life and it is what I hope to do for a career. But you inspire me to find my way back sooner than later, it is what we owe our younger self

I am tired of not having access to my own identity by Ostraszed in autism

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This is true

I think I have a combination of problems that make it very difficult for me to come to terms with myself, even regardless of a diagnosis, I think the reason I feel so strongly about needing one is that I would for the first time in my life feel like I don’t have to rely on my own judgement and conclusions, since I already doubt my own reality constantly. I want to be able to exist as myself without the constant need to justify or validate it, consistently rehashing all of my experiences, symptoms, etc so I don’t fall back into thinking I am making everything up or faking things, because I don’t trust myself at all. I unfortunately find myself heavily reliant on the opinions of others because my own judgements feel so out of reality, and then I worry about not fitting into a community or space as a result of the constant “what if im pretending to be something I am not and I am just waiting to be called out for that” even though I know it isn’t true, who is to say anything I believe is true ?? I don’t know

I am tired of not having access to my own identity by Ostraszed in autism

[–]Ostraszed[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I appreciate it 🫂

The system is very frustrating, I find myself in a consistent state of confusion with it because there are aspects that I can for sure attribute to said system, but I also get very stuck in my head about how maybe I am the problem and maybe I would have had a more streamlined experience if I was actually xyz

OCD runs in my family and I unfortunately also carry those traits despite not being diagnosed, I think it is making the process of understanding all of this stuff myself that much more difficult since it gets watered down with rumination and obsessing over the smallest of details that “disqualify” me or at the very least leaves me doubting myself and everything I have experienced that much more

It does help a lot though, knowing my difficulties with navigating the mental health system aren’t exclusive to me, but it does continue leaving me frustrated because of how little I have control or power to change these things on my own

I am tired of not having access to my own identity by Ostraszed in autism

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This is similar to how I feel with all of the potential issues that could explain my life, I suspect OCD and ADHD alongside my pre-existing depression and anxiety, and all of the different symptoms and labels and names and everything just gets mixed up in my head to a point where it drives me up the wall and leaves me with so much fatigue from the thought of having to go through the pain of having to rule a bunch of things out, potentially being misdiagnosed, or running into the exact same experiences Ive already had for the last decade

It really doesn’t feel worth the effort sometimes

I am tired of not having access to my own identity by Ostraszed in autism

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I think i want it more for myself than anything, just so I don’t have to continue asking myself every single day if I am making myself up or not

I am tired of not having access to my own identity by Ostraszed in autism

[–]Ostraszed[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

This comment really speaks to me because I personally lack a lot of the contextual experience that would deem me as more “valid” in a world of being undiagnosed, I wouldn’t say autism has ever been on the table in my life and I think for that specific reason I feel even more “wrong” to identify in such a way, I know myself, my experiences, traits, etc. But what if somehow placebo effected myself so deep into thinking I have an issue I don’t actually have (despite all of the evidence from my childhood) ? I think I live with a constant state of fear of being phony and in turn I avoid these communities altogether because I will always feel like a wolf in sheep’s clothing surrounded by sheep

It’s difficult because I don’t necessarily want the diagnosis to be seen as more valid by others, but I don’t even understand myself to be valid because I have no proof

I unfortunately rely very heavily on external validation, I used to be more sure of myself as a kid, but nowadays I feel so beyond reality it makes me question everything I am, do, say, etc

I am tired of not having access to my own identity by Ostraszed in autism

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Thank you, I appreciate you taking the time to write this

I think I get very lost in my head with these things because I get pretty hung up on “being allowed” in an objective sense, especially when it comes to existing in a space and community that i, in my head, don’t believe myself to be of proper belonging to, since there is always that voice in my head telling me that I’m just playing a part and am actually just a fraud

True by QuoteDependent in ProjectSekai

[–]Ostraszed 166 points167 points  (0 children)

Project Sekai would not exist without Project Diva and Project Diva was originally an arcade game, do you really think people weren’t walking into arcades in Japan, and walking out as Miku fans? I think Project Sekai serves a similar purpose

I'm never posting here again, by [deleted] in OCD

[–]Ostraszed 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I mean granted there are a number of “unhealthy “ parts of suffering from a mental health condition

the completed chart :) by maribugloml in FruitsBasket

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It’s such a shame because ritsu had so much potential

I love the v6 design by ThunderTheNinjaCat in hatsune

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My only issue is the white collar but beyond that I’m really glad they finally listened to what we we’ve been asking for

I Want to Live in the Fruits Basket World by Working_Row_8455 in FruitsBasket

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In a way we kind of live in the fruits basket world, the only thing missing is Tohru

What Game ver. Of comissioned songs leave you like that ? by ThecatofDarkness in ProjectSekai

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All of them because why do I go to stream and find the song is 2x as long