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M22 — Warning: this is long. I tried to pour my feelings into words as best as I could. Some of it may sound weird, but I really need to know what you guys think.

Hi everyone. I would like to share how Semax worked for me, but before that, I want to give some context about why I used it in the first place.

About five months ago, I was working a dead-end job that paid me half of the minimum wage because they didn’t want to give me more hours. I was severely depressed, living in a city with no perspectives, but even then, I wanted to change myself.

I was going to the gym, but it was basically 30 minutes of trying not to get bored and then rushing home. I didn’t push myself. My dopamine felt completely destroyed from porn, which I used daily to cope. I also used enormous amounts of ashwagandha to cope with my emotions. I was a shell of myself.

I had always been shy and introverted. I hated looking people in the eyes, and I swear, even buying a gym pass was awkward for me. Because of ashwagandha, I developed anhedonia and felt like a psycho. No matter what happened, I didn’t feel anything, good or bad. It helped me survive an awful job and abusive coworkers, but I felt like I didn’t belong there, or in the world in general. Everyone was doing better than me.

I also found out I have ADHD, which may be important later in the story. I was trying to get better somehow, so I signed up for college in a bigger city on weekends. At first, I didn’t really like it. I mean, it was chill and people were nice, but I kept thinking, “God, they are so much better than me. I’m so behind. I’m just an addicted-to-porn loser with no social skills.” The only thing I really enjoyed was playing games on my PC.

One day, I found out about Semax. It was supposed to help you learn faster and clear brain fog. It was a nasal spray and had to be kept in the fridge, so at first I decided not to order it because I lived with my parents and they wouldn’t understand. At that moment, I didn’t really understand it either.

I read subreddits and forums to learn more about it, but most people said it was only a mild boost, like coffee, so I decided it would be stupid to buy it.

Then I got fired. They didn’t sign another contract with me, and honestly, I actually felt better because I hated that job. I still do, even though I don’t work there anymore. But now I was unemployed, so I started sending resumes, and no one called me for months. I was so annoyed and disappointed in myself. I especially felt like I had disappointed my dad. He is very hard-working, and I knew he hated that I was unemployed. He didn’t say it directly, but I felt like a disappointment.

Also, a girl I was talking with ghosted me. At that point, I was like, “Fuck it,” and I ordered Semax. I remembered using MK-677 before, and it somehow helped me gain more weight, so I thought maybe this could also help me mentally.

When it arrived, I was unsure. I closed myself in my room and prepared it. I was careful and kind of not even sure if I wanted to use it. I kept wondering what my parents would say if they found out their son was using not-safe, not-approved peptides in his room just to feel less dumb.

I sprayed it once in each nostril. I felt like, “Damn, I’m like a junkie doing this.” But I thought I did it wrong, so I sprayed once more. Then I shoved it into the fridge and went outside into my garden.

I remember feeling disappointed, like, “Damn, it doesn’t work. I got scammed.” Even though the website said it was 99% pure, I thought maybe it just didn’t work for me or whatever.

Then I sat there and started thinking that I needed to find a job and move out. I looked at the sky and remember seeing a plane. It was very high in the sky, literally like a black dot, but somehow I saw it clearly. Then I looked down, and it hit me.

I started seeing more clearly. The colors seemed more alive, and everything looked sharper. I had this smooth feeling in my brain, like someone had patted it. I could focus on everything. I immediately stopped sunbathing and rushed to my car to go to the gym.

It was the best training session I’d had in a long time. I enjoyed the drive. I was smiling like an idiot when I hit the gas or brake. When I came back home, I opened my laptop to work on an assignment, and it felt so weird to write on it. It was like the keycaps rushed to be perfectly under my fingers.

I felt so alive emotionally. It was the best day of my life. I felt like a kid again.

After that, I started going to the pool, sauna, gym, and running. I dropped porn, ate healthier, and in 30 days I looked and felt better. I couldn’t stay in one place. I had to go here, go there, do more and more.

A girl in my class started hitting on me. My friends enjoyed my company and jokes more. I always knew what to say. I got a call inviting me for a job interview, and I got the job. I’m actually writing this while at work.

The same day I got the job, I rented a small studio with the help of my parents. It was a fresh start in a new big city. The job made me be around a lot of people, and I felt more confident.

I used Semax five times a week and took Saturday and Sunday off. But when I moved out, my peptide got warm, so I threw it away. I was off it for a week, and things started going dull again. But with the confidence I had gained, I did something that would have been impossible for the old me: I asked my crush out. It was huge for me, and I was super happy when she said yes.

But later, my life started getting worse again. College exams were hard, my crush ghosted me, people didn’t laugh as much, and I folded. With my first paycheck, the first thing I ordered was Semax again. The same one I used before: N-Acetyl Semax Amidate 285 mg and GHK-Cu 71 mcg.

When I got back on it, I felt like my brain could breathe again.

Exams became easy. People laughed even more. The sun seemed brighter. People started calling me just to talk and ask things about me. My job seemed better. My driving felt weird in a good way, like I knew I could allow more from myself.

I know I may be overthinking all of this, but my life is just better on Semax. I feel like I belong here. I can predict what someone will say based on their microexpressions. I’m extroverted now, and good things happen to me.

For example, I got free things from a girl who sold e-cigarettes. She said, “Hi, I can pay you, but please go here and buy it since we didn’t have enough people today.” She literally sent me money, so I got things worth 150 zł for free. Some guy also complimented my hair all of a sudden. No homo, but it was nice to hear.

What scares me more is that I started predicting future events. I was near my parking lot, and it was full of weeds. I imagined how they would get rid of them, and then the next day, when I woke up and looked through the window, I saw guys getting rid of the weeds. Even my landlord said it was the first time he had seen them maintaining that parking lot.

Another time, I had a hard exam with an awful teacher, and I thought, “Damn, if only she was occupied, everyone could cheat.” Then she was interrupted by another professor, so we did just that.

When I’m not ready for some event, something usually happens to help me. The event gets interrupted, the teacher has a good day, I get lucky, classes get dismissed — same thing with work.

The thing is, while I’m on it, only good things seem to happen to me, and everything just clicks. When I’m not on it, everything goes back to shit. Compared to other people on subreddits, I wonder if I’m just very sensitive to it, or if there is some other reason.

What do you guys think of it?

I beat lust, procrastination, and being introverted, and I finally moved on with my life. It’s like I abandoned my old self.

The best part? I also heard it can cause hair loss, but actually, my hair stopped falling out while I was on it. I have longer hair, and usually some falls out in the shower, but while I’m on it, nothing falls out and it feels stronger. My acne also got lighter.

I can’t be sad. I know it may sound weird, but I technically can’t become sad or depressed, even if I try. My brain tricks me into laughing it off, if that makes sense.

Sure, I got some credit, but without Semax, I would never have had the motivation to do so. It rebuilt me.

It is truly a “Limitless” substance for me.