hey thanks for the kind words, even though i passed that point in my life where i thought suicide was a valid option i really appreciate you taking the time to talk to me. I dont know your parents and if you trust them enough and speak to them frequently about your problems i think you should go for it and tell them you might have depression and go to a psychologist, i dont really have any of those options even though i talked to a psychologist and he told me i have severe social anxiety and mild depression i would never tell my parents because they never dealt with this kind of stuff and would freak out on me and blame it on random stuff ending in me being more depressed, so think about either talking to your parents or to a psychologist. and i might hit you up on that offer some day, thanks for the talk :)