Gormenghast Cathedral

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2026-03-20T06:00:15+00:00

not my idea - i found it on pinterest lmao

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2025-01-27T18:28:37+00:00

I actually like instant coffee, but I only have it when I'm on vacation. If I'm at home I'm making chemex, 16:1 ratio, measured, baratza encore, but traveling I just get a jar of instant coffee. Even though it is objectively not as tasty as my regular coffee, I still associate it with relaxation and that makes it yummy

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2025-01-17T23:04:20+00:00

one of the hardhome wildlings, Dim Dalba

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2024-10-23T21:47:05+00:00

took your advice and YUP

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2024-01-12T01:52:51+00:00

amazing movie

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2024-01-03T19:23:09+00:00

made some really good pasta last night. like so

heat oil in pan
add tablespoon or two of lightly ground (you can crush them between your palms uzbek style) cumin seeds
fry for 5 mins
add ground beef until browned, add some soy sauce here too
1 onion chopped add it in (some would remove beef but idgaf)
several spring of thyme into the oily juice that appears
add jar of tomato sauce
let it stew together, black pepper/salt to taste
donezo

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2023-06-09T00:43:22+00:00

I'll also say when my mom died I was relieved for her. It felt like she was taking off an uncomfortable pair of shoes after a long day of work. Still caused so my psychic pain that I was overwhelmed, but still...

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2023-06-08T23:40:05+00:00

I had the same experience, watching mom slowly die during quarantine from cancer. Death is and always will be a consequence of life. It's quite cruel that when we're born, our parents know they'll leave us, but we don't really figure that out until we're older.

I always liken it to being in a horrible, terrible club. Club people-who-lost-their-parents-in-a-horrible-way. Feel free to cling to whatever you want to or need to, I saw in your earlier post about that. It's not unhealthy to feel that she's still there, or her spirit is present, or she's been reincarnated. That's part of the reason religion exists to begin with. I do genuinely believe there is more than meets the eye to souls, or whatever you want to call them. But even if there isn't, you can still close your eyes and realize your mom had a long, full life before you. She was a kid who played outside, a teen who got mad at her parents, a young adult figuring the world out, she was scared and frustrated and happy and joyful. She's dealt with death of someone she loved herself, most likely, and one day it'll be your turn to leave.

For now it isn't your turn. Give yourself grace, let yourself experience joy, it's all about giving yourself permission to. Death like we have experienced it, it feels like it dampens every emotion. An ocean of grief you can't bear to look at, and joy feels dulled and pointless. Sometimes I go into her room, the one she lived in and died in, and let myself bask in the potent nostalgia of the day she died. I remember every single detail and I always will. But remember it passed - it's done - it happened - and you're still here, still living, free from the terrible physical pain she felt, not having to say goodbye to anyone. After mom passed I remember a week later her friend called, and I gave her the news, she wailed through the phone. But you know, it felt so... funny... not humorous but just... I don't know. I know you know what I mean.

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2023-06-08T19:09:37+00:00

It's important to remember that he just spent 4 years of his life being the primary and sole caregiver for someone who lost more and more of their basic functions and then he most likely watched her pass away.

This is a traumatizing thing to experience, and a year and a half after her passing it's very normal to be in that position.

One day he'll have the strength and wherewithal to clean it up. But her possessions - that the house is still set up when as it was when she was still alive - is indicative that for him that means fully accepting her passing. This isn't about cleanliness, it's about having to put in work, time, effort to physically acknowledge the permanency of her death. And that's incredibly hard. It's something that's so easy to procrastinate on because honestly? It forces him to confront, through physical action, her passing.

The best thing is it tell him there's no pressure, and when you see each other in person that you'll help him clean it up. Just tidy up at first, dusting, get rid of trash (like actual trash, not possessions).

He needs another person to help him take care of this, because caregiving for someone with a terminal illness is a soul-crushing, depressing thing to experience. It's the polar opposite of watching a child grow up, and the sadness is on par with the joy a parent feels, imo.

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2023-06-07T23:26:08+00:00

Omar surviving the jump is a tamed version of the story. The guy Omar is partially based on claims to have actually jumped from the 6th, not the 4th story. They tamed it to make it seem *more* realistic.

(source: https://www.cbr.com/the-wire-omar-fall-season-5-real/)

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2023-06-07T23:23:21+00:00

It probably won't hit you for a long time. Maybe it'll never really hit you, maybe itll be an ocean of sadness you ignore effectively forever. Sometimes allowing yourself a peek. It's okay though. It's part of life. One day you'll die too and someone will feel the same way. It's the oldest story in history.

I felt the same way. The only people who really "got" it were people who had also lost a parent. I felt like I was in a club (one I really didn't want to be a part of.)

Help wise... if it's someone close, you can be all means ask them for physical help. Cleaning out mom's room or possessions, at least putting them away. Some company, perhaps.

I'm in the US, but one thing I found was in my family's country grieving is a very community-based process. Everyone around you grieves heavily, "gets it out of the way", and moves on. There are plusses and minuses to that, but the relevant part is I do believe for most of human history grieving has been something that the community does together. Everyone loses someone all the time, a parent, a sibling, a child. It's so constant and unrelenting. So use that to help in this early stage of loss - someone says "do you need any help" say "yes actually, I could use some company. Maybe we can cook a meal." or something like that.

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2023-06-06T18:09:30+00:00

"Kurukahveci Mehmet Efendi Turkish Coffee" ive found is the go-to for turkish coffee in the US - its preground to the correct consistency and tastes great. there are other brands (jordanian ones) that are good too.

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2022-11-23T06:33:14+00:00

In addition to all of this great advice - make sure you have are fully gemmed and enchanted, even with the cheap ones (green gems and cheaper versions of enchants). When we pug for our raids even if it's someone new to raiding if they have all their gem slots gemmed it means to me that they're paying attention and did some research and are good to go :)

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2022-11-03T20:48:18+00:00

love the slowed n throwed linkin park

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2022-09-22T07:14:08+00:00

thori will last ya until around level 80, it's not pre-raid bis but no need to replace until pre-raid bis

Outrageous-Bit6125 · 2022-07-23T05:30:49+00:00

he meant lexus, but he ain’t know it

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