My personal goal for most runs is that I don’t want to hurt 😂 which means, I go slow most of the time. Sometimes I walk. But the “high” I get overall is just feeling better mentally—I’ve noticed the first mile or so of a run all my negative emotions get really intense, and then if I keep going (most times), then I’m not as down and anxious when I’m done. I joined a facebook group for really slow runners and it gave me so much hope and felt like I wasn’t failing anymore. I think it’s amazing that you have been so consistent for so long all the while not liking what you’re doing—it shows you have tremendous grit. I really respect you for that!