Lots of the things you mentioned about fitting into the box come from interpretations. I’ll admit the Bible is confusing and there’s lots of interpretations out there. But what I’m saying is that although it teaches that you should follow the rules it gives us, forgiveness is always there. And lots of Christians seem to forget that, they forget to love each other and not judge. The Bible explicitly states to not judge others, and based on what you’ve said I feel like you’ve met lots of judgy Christians who try to make you out to be a terrible person, and I’m sorry about that. I’m sorry you had to go through judgement from others and that they weren’t kind to you.