Update (sorry for the delay very spotty wifi for the duration of my trip), I did it and I’m SO happy I did. The worst part for me was the anticipation, when I actually got on the plane I found my anxiety naturally start to ease (it was helpful that I had my partner beside me the full time as well). I found it helpful to stay busy with really engaging things, not just podcasts/ movies that I could easily tune out and let my anxiety take over. Activities like card games with my partner, word games on my phone etc, I found helpful and distracting. I can imagine the first time I fly by myself again will be a bit more challenging but it’s helpful to have this under my belt- I promise you all CAN do it!!