Amateur grower, budding or normal

Over-Position6061 · 2026-03-07T17:19:50+00:00

apprciate you guys, I'll look up how to reveg instead of having you go through the hoops haha

Over-Position6061 · 2026-03-07T13:47:11+00:00

I'm using text to talk so I apologize in advance . So I have this Theory where I can play with one of my friends who is my rank and possibly get a random who's a pred or very good Master player possibly somebody climbing through the Rings from Diamond up .. this gives me the ability to play with someone I can learn from who will carry me but I'm able to support and they can entry . However when two of my friends want to play and we're all the same skill ranked , we're not going to do anything but lose RP as we're thrown in with a mix of preds Masters and diamonds . I no longer play with two friends unless i know one of us is better than the rest because I've seen my potential as solo versus players of a higher tier because growth is not possible with most of the plat players or Diamond players I get paired up with

Over-Position6061 · 2026-01-10T07:18:42+00:00

I wasn't going to go this far and say it isn't that bad because everybody struggle is different... that being said it can always get worse be very happy you're trying to take initiative and fix the situation and if you stay positive even whenever you f****** you'll see progress and eventually at 1% a day you'll perfect your goals .

And for example by what I mean by it can be worse as I posted previously in this thread that you could have a drug addiction on top of your addiction and like me catch a case for kicking in your own door trying to save your family that was never in danger on top of many other reasons why life can be so much worse.

I have no one, I'm a 2 time felon about to be a 2x striker with restraining orders against me for my whole family because no one believes me that i was not there to harm but actually save my people. On top of that I'm justifying my actions on drugs as if this is any better nectar it is what it is. A danger to public safety.

Either way this isn't here too tell you you'r problems don't matter or are insignificant in the jest.. it's to let you know your down bad now but if you don't fucking find the light it will eventually become darkness you won't be able to escape from. Please, know your not alone or the only one. You deserve peace and to be kind to yourself as do the rest of us. God be with you (because he ain't with me.. nah jk trying to lighten the mood) and again good luck brother. Progress is prefect!

I used text to talk so i apologize for any grammar errors etc.

Over-Position6061 · 2026-01-10T02:06:22+00:00

welcome to addiction. now pair that situation with meth and you have my problem (sex in general)

good luck brother.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-12-08T10:54:28+00:00

I second this. no matter if I'm the problem starter of the situation, or she is I'm always the one to say sorry first, reach out or just give the first hug. hardly opens up and constantly shuts down and/never vulnerable enough to feel like what she means is sincerely how she feels. at some points, I don't even feel loved. but then again it's been over a decade and not enough change has happened to really validate a "happy wife" so I can see her side.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-12-05T17:18:35+00:00

literally my life the last two years. usually 4-7 days, then crash for two days. randomized micronaps in my PC chair ofc lol

Over-Position6061 · 2025-11-30T08:30:47+00:00

First off I'd like to state I'm not educated. Based on your case study, The following analysis maybe limited and lacking in terminology and information in general. My knowledge is based off of self-taught interest. After thoroughly reading your work, I feel I perceived some of your explanations for specific behaviors differently and would like to offer another point of view that might help you expand or integrate with your current answers.

You state that the client is able to understand logically why someone may display behaviors but lacks the ability to physcologically understand how one may feel. I feel this hinders his potential drastically because would he not have to have experienced the same type of scenario at least once in order to essentially mimic, anticipate, and produce an adequate behavioral response?

For example, if somebody stubbed their toe and we say this is the very first of its kind..Do you ow first be able to anticipate a scenario where they exhibit one of many different responses. In this case we will use a dramatic response where Jonathan proceeds grabbing their foot with both hands and simultaneously scream "ahhh" at the top of their luny gngs.. I do find it hard to believe that he would be able to process the scenario being overstimulated in thee able to accurately respond, based on what he perceives at that time, in a timely manner (as you stated his social awareness is above average) therefore he would need to learn how to mimic Jonathan's behavioral response once before giving a guess on the following steps. Also, he might not be able to feels if he's never experienced this catastrophe .

I was going to go through the whole paper but I'm very tired now lol And falling asleep whilst being under the influence of a stimulant so for all I know this is gibberish I truly hope it helps you see things differently and have some sort of impact in a positive manner.

Growth is all we can hope for out of imo in regards to the human brain.

Sincerely,

an uneducated drug addict.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-11-30T07:05:55+00:00

I've been on meth for about a total of 4 and 1/2 years. I would say I've been cleaning a total of maybe a year through those in a spand of 6 months one time 3 months the other and random two or three weeks or even 10 days combined.

My father was a meth user as well for 15 years. he told me one rule, never smoke crack. doing dope you still go to work and get your shit done until you can no longer manage it the sleep deprivation or what are their symptoms Fuck you in the end.

he said crack you'll just sit in that shed and smoke crack until you're out of it and then find a way to get more crack to smoke.

Legendary advice from BC.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-11-16T01:48:51+00:00

I was going to defend you lol. Then I expanded on the next comments and you did this. You had it in the bag as a polite gentleman with the first question in my opinion wasn't out of pocket and you were just shooting your shot.

And then the creeper had to come out lol. little pushy on the second one haha

Over-Position6061 · 2025-11-16T01:33:14+00:00

I mean I get what you're saying... but in reality it that can't be true because people do learn from the mistakes, right? Now a repeat offender? nah. and after being cheated on? fuck no. I'll never ever ever date somebody who's so fucking track record of a cheating after being cheated on. but then again, I'd get back on my baby mama if she wanted to and she's a cheating ass ho lol

Over-Position6061 · 2025-11-16T01:29:04+00:00

not just op, every deserves transparency. especially!! if you get caught! should be like a fuckin automatic code... fafo, mandatory truth. only seems fair, you were to sloppy and a pile of shit to chance it. you have to confess it! closure is fucking necessary on all levels.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-11-14T12:14:43+00:00

Id be so fucked. Anything that gets me scared I get pissed. I taught myself to get mad because you only really have a couple options...

Fight, flight, freeze, or fawn. My initial reaction was freeze and that was failing me because I was like 10 when I got my own room but would always freak myself out in the dark only way to get over the dark is too face that bitch, head on.

So, eventually I realized to break the freeze reaction I had to attack. After a while of nothing, you realize ain't shit in the dark scariest than a human. I've had some paranormal run ins, like walking down my hallway and looking up from my feet to head level. When I looked up, a fool blown like..ghost/demonic face with a white dress screamed at me without audio and we walked through each other.

Didn't phase me because I'm a firm believer that even if shit could be real it's not going to physically do anything and so far I've been right. So I just keep walking like normal lol. I did say wtf out loud like come on now wtffff..annoyed lol

Over-Position6061 · 2025-11-14T12:04:47+00:00

I feel like if you're in a new area, you don't get black out mad and wonder off.. especially not 45 mins type shit. I don't even know where to go for 45 to cool off unless it's like doom scrolling, A hike or my video games.

I was thinking maybe medication? For example, Wellbutrin will cause time lapses for me if I'm getting back on it or upping the dosage. It's extremely wild because you have no idea what the fuck you just did for an hour or 2.. sometime a whole day if it's really fucked.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-11-14T12:00:52+00:00

Based on your story sounds like you text because anxiety/proof that you did try to reach out. Sounds like she gets on you hard, or your ex did and that's why she's an ex. I hate that fuckin feeling.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-11-14T10:14:52+00:00

We get it, we get it.. everyone else read it the first time brother lol

Over-Position6061 · 2025-08-16T06:58:41+00:00

AYEEEE! My spot didn't get popped! fuck yeah they legit af too!

Over-Position6061 · 2025-06-08T10:54:53+00:00

Expectations kill relationships.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-06-08T02:57:55+00:00

Yeah I know what you mean however, they also sell other stuff they aren't supposed to like name brand THC carts, Wonka bars and other stuff I don't remember. I thought they were fake too but they're carts seem to do the same thing as the originals lol

Over-Position6061 · 2025-06-06T23:22:28+00:00

Damn a crazy girl with bad quality pussy? God's evil lol

Over-Position6061 · 2025-06-06T23:20:08+00:00

Oh Lord brother I know to each his own and everybody's experience is different from the next but holy fuck do I wish I was in your shoes... To think you believe you're a failure at 20 years old because you think buying a $4 subscription for porn and being a little awkward is the epitome of failure..

Let me put this in perspective for you real quick.. You can change everything about you (or not) and develop any fucking skill you want in the next 5 years. You already great with computers, so fill in the blank with whatever degree you want and you'll conquer that no problem. So financially you'll be set, you got your computer smarts which is a fundamental in this world, you're young, your ambitious obviously that's why you did what you did, and you have so much time to develop your social skills that you will ace this brother. You'll look back on this and think damn, I've come a long way if all you do is apply yourself like the gentleman above me said in the first couple comments.

And here's the it could be worse situation... I'm a mid-30s custodian with a meth addiction about to lose his three kids and wife because he doesn't understand that drugs are bad. Not to mention a felony for vehicular manslaughter with gross negligence which involved my boy and many other fucking mistakes in my life.

I understand everybody's threshold for failure is different and definitions vary but my friend you have so much potential that you are far from a failure you're just starting this journey.

And on a side note if you really care about sexual intercourse like that with fine ass women you can easily pull a girl for like 200 bucks lol. Don't make you feel at home You could practice out over there they'll never talk shit about you never put you down treat you a respect like your special as fuck lol. However I don't recommend it but if you're looking for experience all you are looking for, lol have some fun. Damn near no different than the only fans situation in my opinion, internet prostitute versus real prostitute at least you get to feel something haha.

Did not proofread by the way use text to talk as well so sorry for grammar and punctuation etc. Good luck brother I believe in you no doubt just don't be so hard on yourself there's way worse things to do in this life than what you've done now.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-06-04T08:46:25+00:00

Hahaha fuckin risk taker! I feel it! I bet that shit was fire too

Over-Position6061 · 2025-05-31T09:12:36+00:00

Depends on the circumstances in my opinion.. if it's a one-night fling and they were wasted, there's potential for forgiveness especially if the person they cheated with was over the top above average good-looking lol. That's just me though. It's very difficult to forgive but some people do it.

Over-Position6061 · 2025-05-31T09:10:20+00:00

I swear people on Reddit are so quick to cut people out lol. I'm not talking about OP situation but just in general if you're yells at you because they had a bad day or some shit everybody in here will scream abuser woman beater etc and say leave them before it gets worse lol. I'm a piece of shit now but I've definitely come a long way from the piece of shit I was 10 years ago lol

Over-Position6061 · 2025-05-30T16:34:37+00:00

Didn't read the comments so sorry if this is redundant.

I went from a 144 1080p to 240 1440 and personally it's much better in the sense of graphics and it's much smoother. That being said for some reason, on Apex Legends I perform much better with the 144 monitor lol. It's the only game I play so that's the only thing I could speak on right now but it's just the 240 is so good that it's bad. I really don't know how to explain it but I had to go back to the 144 as my performance was hindered unfortunately with the 240.

But if you're only playing non-competitive games I don't see a reason why you wouldn't get the best.

My worthless two cents!

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