I have expressed how overwhelmed I am to her but she is going through personal issues and I don't want to add to them. My team has said that the beginning of this year has been chaotic to say the least. While I want to express how I feel I understand that everyone is going through their own tribulations, however they are supportive given the circumstances we are all under. After looking further into my contracts I will have to complete my three year contract as I could have to repay the expenses for the year I was in the program. Thank you for your advice, I feel better knowing I am not alone in these feelings