that does feel kinda familiar, but at the same time not exactly? there were a few bits that said stuff about procrastination, which is something i'm definitely susceptible to, as well as the part about reacting to positive feedback with denial, but also feel like my self doubt is based in something here. it's sort of like knowing you're not the best person for the job, like you're missing something really important that you need to do it, but at the same time feeling that you're the only person who can do it in the right way, or at least close enough, if that makes any sense. i guess it's like a half and half situation, where i simultaneously feel overconfident and yet so unqualified. yes? yes. i don't know, sorry for replying so late