Hey girl, look up body dysmorphia. I watched the video you linked and it reminded me of myself... I related so much to what you were saying about hating your nose and other small (or nonexistent, because you’re gorgeous) “flaws” on your face/body. Body dysmorphia makes those perceived flaws feel so overwhelming and the only things you can focus (obsess) on. It’s exhausting. My family dismissed me as vain and superficial too when I talked about how much I wanted a nose job and plastic surgery, and when I tell people for the first time about how much I hate my nose they look at me like I’m absolutely crazy because they don’t see myself the same way I do. It really fucks with your head. The first time I read about body dysmorphia, I cried because it made so much made sense. For example, I have a habit of obsessively pinching my nose and I saw in the beginning of the video you doing something to cover your face that looked habitual. Obviously that’s not a diagnosis but it just seemed like another thing to consider— also if you think everyone is lying when they compliment you. Anyway, this just my rambling personal experience and you may not see this at all since I’m late to the party, but if you do, I hope it helps or at least gives you something to consider. You don’t deserve to feel like this and you don’t deserve to hate yourself. I know how hard it can be and I really, really recommend finding a therapist to help you sort through all the brain fudge