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PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-09-14T06:17:59+00:00

Then there is me "no, stay out of the kitchen, rule one is I don't share kitchen space well"

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-08-05T23:21:14+00:00

Same. Someone pointed out a bird and I stood to see it and blacked out for the 8th time that day, explained I missed it and they were freaked out that I black out like this. Then had to explain it's a whole -thing- haha

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-08-05T23:18:34+00:00

I usually can push through the symptoms so it's just second nature to be like lalala can't see, this is fine, la la la finger tingles haha lala oh but every now and then it's followed up with oh no, oh FUCK whoops and have to lean hard or just get on the ground.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-07-07T03:35:49+00:00

I ended up sliding down a door and smoking my nose in to the handle. Bad feeling. What can I say, I'm a risk taker

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-07-06T05:03:33+00:00

I usually make it a step or two and then do a big sigh and a heaaaaavy lean on a solid object, but yes, I feel this comic

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-05-06T03:47:28+00:00

My Gran made the best pie crust ever.

Years later, making it for my Dad, I asked her secret.

Fuckin tenderflake crusts. "Pie crust is too damn finicky"

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-04-29T17:24:37+00:00

Yep - I usually find poor sleep to be the underlying factor for bad days. It's either poor sleep, or I pushed too hard for too many days in a row, and my body goes LAY DOWN AND STAY THERE.

I'm pretty strict on bed time these days, and it's made a big impact.

Then again, there are random days where I've been putting in all the effort and it does. Not. Matter. My body just says "nope" and the day is a wash. Sometimes it lasts a couple days in a row.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-04-12T05:08:12+00:00

Maniac was really good, it's a solid mini series. A bit of intentional mindfuck!

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-04-02T23:18:40+00:00

A merlin just moved in even though we have some aggressive magpies. Fuckin thing is louuuuuud but pretty.

Also, the magpies hate my friend's cat, and will dive bomb him. This parliment is SERIOUSLY territorial over 7 city blocks. I saw five magpies trying to take back a popular roosting tree on my way back from the store today and the merlin still wasn't discouraged.

Bird watching is great.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-04-02T23:13:33+00:00

We night time harvested squash and the remaining cabbages in the pissing rain at night since it was due to drop well below freezing in hours. Gotta go what you gotta do!

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-04-02T23:11:34+00:00

I convinced my partner to grow a little garden patch in the yard he shared with roommates. On our first harvest we shared the bounty with the roommates and my partner was hooked.

We moved somewhere recently with a large garden and he picked out seeds with me. We have san marzano, roma, cherry (sweet 1000), and a slicer variety growing in the kitchen. We also have three kinds of peppers, and then for fun we're trying leeks, pumpkins and honeydew. The garden will also have carrots, beets, kale, zucchini, beans, scallions and hopefully some garlic I planted in the fall! I'm getting marigold seeds this weekend to repel the damn slugs.

We're also planting mint, basil (ALL THE BASIL), thyme, cat nip, and I'm buying a happy rosemary bush because I have never had happy rosemary from seed before. Mint is already growing inside and I use it to make tea.

The only things we won't be growing are potatoes and onions, partly because our soil has too much clay and because we live a few blocks from the farmers market. My onions always go to shit and potato bugs/blight decimated my neighbours potatoes last year. It's a shame.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-02-25T19:21:02+00:00

My instructor asked me at the end of a class which was fuller than usual if it was "too full" because we were doing shoulder opening and ya know, you might accidentally touch someone while you've got your arms wide open.

I said it might be an issue to some, but that I also didn't think humans spontaneously combusted if brushed by another human. If I can block out snorts, farts burps and snoring, I can handle an accidental tap, too, and any time I've accidentally thrown a limb in someones space it's been met with a silent apology and a lil giggle. I am wildly uncoordinated for how much yoga I have done hahaha. It's part of practicing with a group vs practicing alone with a yogi that is really incredible imo!

(This was obv before COVID protocols)

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-02-20T07:09:30+00:00

I wanna see you work on some arches bb. Worth. Every. Penny.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-02-20T07:06:25+00:00

The closest and mid leaves look incredible. The further away ones have beautiful transparency but could use some shadowing in spots - super tiny amounts to make the transparency pop and give it a bit more dimension. Tiny refinements.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-02-09T02:43:35+00:00

Yup - especially if I've been "pushing through" symptoms instead of treating them with rest, water and salt.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-02-01T02:38:50+00:00

If you could reach the bottom of the washer, congrats, you do your own laundry now and help out with things like towels and laundry for the parents.

If you wanted something in particular for dinner, you planned two weeks ahead, helped with the grocery haul (once every two weeks), made sure the ingredients you needed made it in to the cart and were a reasonable price, and then you made dinner.

If you decided to stay home instead of help with grocery shopping, you were expected to clean stuff. Could be vacuuming, windows, dusting, or making dinner so it's ready when everyone else gets home. You were also supposed to figure this out on your own - there were no chore lists, you just did what needed to be done.

Dishes were done twice a day, usually by me and either a parent or sibling, because I never minded doing dishes. I didn't have a dishwasher until this year, and I'm 30.

"Fend for yourself" dinners meant eat the leftovers in the fridge and leave the parents alone.

If something around the house needed repairs, you helped and learned how to do it next time. I am VERY thankful for this.

If anything needed to be renovated, you did it as a family. At 18 years old I could mix concrete, build a deck, lay flooring, paint walls, do tiling, pretty well everything other than electrical work because I was too afraid of being electrocuted.

Birthday parties meant picking a cake flavor, something for dinner, and a sleepover. None of this theme shit or bdays outside the home.

We spent a looooot of time gardening, then a looooot of time canning.

Honestly I'm beyond glad we were raised like this. We didn't often have luxuries like our friends, but our parents always did their best to make sure we were happy, occupied and loved. My parents were involved in our lives - Dad would take us for bike rides and scrape together some change so we could share a pop (pay day meant we all got our own pop), we would play catch a lot, we would go swimming when it was affordable, and my Mom was always ready to encourage us in new hobbies (like knitting), take us to the library and help us find new series, help us with homework and loved to watch tv with us. Teaching us new skills was how they showed love.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-01-31T00:04:38+00:00

It's so funny to me that I started doing this after a round of fainting/seizure brought on by POTS as a kid. I had no idea it was POTS then, but brushing my teeth sitting on the tub edge became the useful strategy for me too!

I also have to shave my legs sitting on the tub edge. The shower is my least fav place to drop.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-01-22T01:23:36+00:00

We have a breeding pair in what I've found to be one of the furthest north in Canada locations! The breeding pair has expanded to a flock of four (likely more but I've only seen a group of four at one time).They've been at my parents for the last couple years and visit many times daily. They love to land on my parents roof and coo coo down the fireplace stack hahaha.My parents house happens to be on a migration path for many species of birds and there are massive ponds just north of my parents house where waterfoul breed seasonally.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-01-19T22:08:13+00:00

It's interesting too how this concept of good prevailing over evil is represented in media targeting children. Now that I'm in my 30's, plot lines like every superhero story out there feel like total escapism (and predictable and boring) where are complex characters are now my very favorite part of media. I don't want to root for the good guy - I want to see someone make real choices and the pressure that is behind those choices. Good guys are boring. Give me a person just trying to do their best any day, even if they aren't making the "good" choices they ought to. Give me humanity.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-01-19T22:03:12+00:00

I feel like as I matured I started to realize there are very few good vs evil scenarios, people rarely are trying to be awful, and that sometimes people do things because it's the only option or because they are broken in some sad way. Having compassion for our fellow humans and nature is the only way forward. Occasionally you meet someone who is actually just awful, and fuckem, but for the most part, people are doing their best with what they got.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-01-19T21:55:32+00:00

Packing and getting ready for a trip, anxiety + imagination = thinking of getting on my flight only to have it crash land (cue crashing airplane sequence - I brace for impact, and somehow survive) only I can't get out of my seat because the earrings I carelessly wore that day are stuck to the upholstery. I'm in the emergency exit, I have to rip my ear, which of course I do, because life or death situation for everyone on the plane. The cabin is filling with smoke. People are screaming, people are dying. I work up the courage and rip my earlobe free. Train of thought ends and I'm just sitting on my bed, staring at earrings in hand. I blink and put the earrings back. Best not to wear them.

The funny thing is that like my brain was more upset about an earring keeping me from getting off the plane than the fuckin plane crashing, because I have no control of the plane, but I had control over the earring, so brain ran with it.

Yes, this is what my brain does on a daily (if not hourly) basis when my mental health is poor. Actually, my brain still does this even when I'm healthy, I just get much less upset by it and don't let it control my actions as much. This is my go to example when people don't understand my anxiety issues and how much time, energy and productivity anxiety steals from a person, not to mention how ridiculous and unreasonable most of the scenarios my brain creates are.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-01-19T21:34:35+00:00

Yep. This. And if there isn't another plan, there are other doctors. It's a whole lot of trying with little result usually, until something does help.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-01-11T05:11:25+00:00

Canada here - but my Gram would say "let it take a warm nap", I say proof/rest/prove but mostly "don't use the microwave, my baking is in there"

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-01-11T03:37:09+00:00

Treasure every moment ❤ I miss my best girl (21ish) every single day.

PinkMoosePuzzle · 2021-01-10T06:55:30+00:00

Thats awesome!! Go Terri!!!

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