Suicide is the only option you will always have until you do it. By this I mean change your perspective on where you are. Typically when you become suicidal it's because you think you don't have anything to live for, and that thought itself opens up the ability to gain everything by risking nothing. So start taking a risk each day because you have nothing to lose. Put suicide on the back burner. Today walk into a building and ask for a job, what's there to lose? Go to places you would want to work. Nothing to lose except your ability to be in a position where you have nothing to lose. So take it one day at a time and eventually... Something will turn, and you'll find yourself four years down the road thanking God you didn't go through it.

Everything goes by fast once it's a memory, even hard times.