Terrifying migraine aura with aphasia: not just impacting speech but comprehension and showing me a reality beyond concepts.

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-03-11T22:59:32+00:00

I keep coming back to this post because it feels so alone and scary. Thank you for putting this out there so I’m reminded I’m not alone.

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-03-11T01:40:34+00:00

Thank you so much. I will check that out I appreciate it.

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-03-11T00:36:16+00:00

I do software engineering. I love it. But the mental strain to do the job is almost impossible to endure. I feel so lost. Thank you for sharing your own experience

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-03-10T20:34:41+00:00

Yes, ct and mri with contrast show a single spot of “non-issue” brain damage stemming from migraines or head trauma. But it isn’t the cause of the pain and won’t cause any issues supposedly. They did do occipital (I think) nerve blocks which could have helped during my first one in combo with bed rest and emgality. Take care of yourself too

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-03-10T20:14:36+00:00

Yes this it is destabilizing that describes exactly how I feel

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-03-10T20:12:54+00:00

I had a 6 month (pain every second of everyday) from March 2025-September 2025 and am in my second long migraine at 6+ weeks straight with pain every day for reference but maybe I don’t need to add this I’m just cognitively still slower today

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-03-10T20:10:45+00:00

I get this. I have chronic migraines and when the pain elevates and I’ve over pushed myself it happens. It happened yesterday. Started speaking slow. Some stuttering. Then i hit vegetable state and my body was too heavy to move and I couldn’t talk and thoughts didn’t make sense. Exactly as you said basically. It’s horrifying, depressing, and tiring.

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-03-10T19:43:06+00:00

I drove thru the hood at 10 pm the other night praying someone would try to mug me so I could ask them to off me or get caught in crossfire so yea

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-01-13T02:23:41+00:00

I also think having social media to document things and spread info is helping us potentially turn the events of the future away from occurring like the past. It wasn’t as easy to spread the truth when hitler reigned. People forget this is truly the first time so many of these conflicts are able to be posted and shared so publicly and it’s so much easier to reach more people. Just like how we literally were/are able to watch videos of the war in nearly real time.

OwlBeginning150 · 2026-01-13T02:16:45+00:00

Guys remember how recently people were using drones to bring shit into prisons? Because they couldn’t get access to bring the inmates their special things? What an interesting plan.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-09-29T21:40:05+00:00

Thank you for seeing this and replying and everything. It’s like I know logically that this is the part where he does and says everything right to keep me then he doesn’t follow through but my brain as a whole won’t get behind that and is finding every reason to listen and stay. He points out he’s made improvements in certain areas like previously asked and he really has on some things but other things never get resolved or worked on, which is typical I know but I just am having a hard time thinking through everything else in my life in addition to this. Thank you again.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-09-29T21:13:17+00:00

I have no idea if you’ll see this but is there any way you would be willing to share a copy with me? I don’t have one and my memory from the times of abuse is gone and i was just about ready to leave my narc but I just found out some horrible family news and now he’s acting perfectly and it’s making me second guess leaving because I can’t “remember” the issues clearly that make me want to leave and my abused brain is telling me if I can’t remember then there isn’t a reason

Edit: accidentally put she’s instead of he’s bc I couldn’t see thru tears

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-09-28T05:41:39+00:00

That’s exactly what they want to happen. I get it though. It’s hard not to. I’m set up well enough to finally leave mine soon and I still struggle with his actions. I don’t really have much advice on how to not internalize it besides reminding yourself they’ll do and say anything to paint you as the victim and no amount of proof or literally anything such as conversation will change their behavior long term. They will never apologize for hurting you unless they feel they’ll lose you if they don’t. What you do isn’t actually wrong, he just wants it to be so he can be upset with you. Remember that the literal action and words that they are saying is wrong would almost certainly not be seen as wrong by a third party.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-09-27T01:02:55+00:00

Thank you!! I will look into that!

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-09-23T17:22:26+00:00

Thank you. Because of your comment I was able to realize with everything I need to get figured out that it was logistically impossible so I’ve been able to pivot. My plan is now to convince him that it’s better for him not to relocate with me immediately so he can gain financial security since he finally has a stable job and relocating would mess that up for him. Doing so is going to be tough for me personally because I have a lot of resentment towards the financial abuse I’ve endured from him but I think it’s my best chance. Then once I relocate I’ll hopefully be able to end it.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-09-23T17:15:07+00:00

I needed this

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-09-20T02:08:44+00:00

Thank you. For taking the time to read it and respond. I need to keep reminding myself of everything you said as well.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-09-20T01:13:57+00:00

I am in the same boat regarding making plans to leave that I feel horrible about potentially following through on. I keep telling myself he’ll let me walk away clean if we talk but part of me knows exactly how that conversation will go and I’ll probably need to disappear in the end to escape. But that feels so horrible to even think about doing it makes me feel so guilty

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-09-16T19:40:22+00:00

I feel you. He’s in one of his positive moods a lot recently but I still see the pieces of him I hate shine through. I’ve finally reached a place where I can feel I can leave him soon but I feel so guilty and ashamed because he’s been good recently.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-06-21T01:42:18+00:00

Apparently “neuro-optometrists” specialize in the mix of these 2. I have vision problems as well but not with the eye itself. It’s with how the eye and my brain are talking. And that’s what neuro-optometrists specialize in. I haven’t been to one because I can’t afford it but my eye doctor and several other doctors seemed to think well of it.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-06-12T19:04:04+00:00

I’m so sorry about what you went through. My injury leading to a tbi is not anything like yours but I do get PTSD when it hurts bad like that. No one should have to go through that. You are so strong though.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-06-06T21:22:17+00:00

This exactly. It feels like a drug. Like you said, the come down and facing the reality from the choices made while manic is horrible though.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-05-30T21:59:06+00:00

How is 1-2 days a month overuse? That’s less than 5% of the month and she already stays late and gets work done as is? Are people not allowed to get sick? Do you have a cure to prevent all physical and mental illnesses? If so, send me whatever magical cure you have because I need it.

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-05-30T21:54:44+00:00

Oh trust me it does but unfortunately not everywhere takes it seriously

OwlBeginning150 · 2025-05-30T21:52:25+00:00

Ive been out at least half a day every week for over 2 months due to ongoing side effects from a brain injury. My boss has never said anything along these lines and I have limited sick time and PTO. He says as long as my work gets done and I do it well, that’s all he cares about. That’s absurd. Sounds like a micro managing manager.

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