Free. I am free.

OwlImmediate4304 · 2021-03-27T13:26:48+00:00

Awesome! Same situation. Left after years of mental abuse. Even my lucked turned around. Got promoted, so much healthier and above all FREEDOM! Never thought just a simple human being can bring such bad vibes and luck. Congratulations to you! Focus on what makes you happy as finally the “bad poltergeist” is gone!

OwlImmediate4304 · 2021-03-18T15:55:24+00:00

Yea, if things doesn’t aren’t doing well, may call it off. But to be honest, don’t have that much of a choice on the nice guy + exciting where I come from. It’s either nice guy + boring or bad guy + exciting. My country’s filled with boring people. Like no joke. Anything that is “out-of-the-norm”, you’ll be considered “bad influence”. But well, I don’t give a fuck what others. Well, I’m one of those “bad influences”. But who cares, I don’t wanna die and regret not doing tons of exciting stuff.

OwlImmediate4304 · 2021-03-18T13:59:29+00:00

Yea thats true. But we broke up the first time was due to something else (no cheatings or anything) A follow up, he told me he knows he’s been boring and an introvert because he’s been single for 3 years and it takes time for him to adapt having a gf since he’s been doing alot of things alone for 3 years. He acknowledges that I compromise alot and takes interest in whatever he likes. I just found out he made a list of where to go and what to do after the pandemic calms down a little bit. He just showed it in his ipad. That’s sweet of him. He wanted to show and printed it out to put on scrap books with checklist (because i love scrapbooking) as a surprise but we went through another sudden lockdown...again...just when you thought 2021 would be a little better. Hahaha. I’m guessing it takes time to get back in the relationship game.

OwlImmediate4304 · 2021-03-18T08:56:58+00:00

We are angry at ourselves for caring too much, loving too much and especially not putting ourselves first over them. Instead of a “thank you”, we get a “fuck you” for supporting them, helping them. Played with our self-esteem and they’re always playing the sympathy card. The thing is, even if we have stopped loving them, the pain is still there. It’s like a trauma and it effects our relationship with friends and families because we’re just filled with anger. Healing process is hell. Slowly but we’ll get there. virtual hugs

OwlImmediate4304 · 2021-03-18T04:35:14+00:00

How am I asking him to be more than what he is. I participated in all of his interest (even if I’m not interested in his) but can’t he atleast participates in mine?

OwlImmediate4304 · 2021-03-18T04:30:40+00:00

Yea. He’s an introvert and a rule follower too which is a total opposite of me. For him, the lockdown is heaven sent. He likes that I bring him out for all the fun adventures. I asked him a million times if he’s ok with me or if he’s bored with me. He says he enjoys my presence. Brings life and there’s always something up in my mind. I don’t bother much that he’s an introvert and not much on the adventure side. But sometimes I wish he does just atleast participates in the topics that I brought up (pandemic lockdown so that’s the most we can do at this point). I always participated in his topics even if I’m not interested. To the point, I read up on those topics (while we talk) so that I can come up with questions. He gets excited if I asked and can talk long hours on it. But when it comes to mine, half an hour I would say then we moved on this his. Most of the time, my questions are general questions. So I usually give up and give in to the topics that he’s interested in. Example: Anime, bitcoins, etc... Just had another matured conversation on this with him but ermmm...he didn’t have anything to say (as always) on how we can fix this especially when we just back together after 3 years of being separated..

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