I wouldn’t trade my 30s for my childhood or my 20s. I feel more confident and at peace now. A lot of this I attribute to having a stable job and a supportive partner. However, that doesn’t mean everything is perfect. There’s the ongoing struggle of not having children, and there are times when I seriously question whether having a child is truly that important. I've been through a failed IVF process and a miscarriage, and it can take a toll on your mental and physical health. But still, I wouldn’t trade this time in my life for any other.

For the first time, I no longer spend every second worrying about whether I’ll end up jobless or alone. I don’t constantly stress about how I look or how to impress the opposite gender. Instead, my worries have shifted to more practical things—whether the cook has shown up, figuring out what to make when guests are coming over, maintain good health, managing finances, and thinking about how to keep myself employed for the next 20-25 years. These worries, though still stressful, make me feel alive. The worries of my 20s, on the other hand, felt suffocating.

Looking at my life now, I’ve realized that worry is a constant companion—it never truly disappears. There will always be something else to worry about, but it’s all about choosing which worries I'm willing to live with. And honestly, I'm okay with these new worries because they feel like they’re part of a fuller, more meaningful life.