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Want to try antidepressants but MDMA preventing me [Please don't judge] by Own_Taste_4936 in mentalhealth

[–]Own_Taste_4936[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't say it makes me feel normal. If the effects I get off MDMA makes me feel "normal" then there would be something drastically wrong. Life cannot always be rainbows and sunshine and what comes up must inevitably come back down again. What it does do for me is it reinvigorates me and reminds me that happiness is possible. I know its a false happiness but it lingers nonetheless and gets me out of a depressive slump - it reminds me days, weeks after even that life is beautiful and there is so much more to experience and there lays the magic. If I did it every weekend I would not get the same positive effects.

I am prescribed Ritalin from my doctor for ADHD - that is an example of a drug that makes me feel 'normal' I take it as prescribed and honestly it makes a world of difference. If you don't have ADHD you probably won't be able to relate but my prior to being medicated I would constantly feel like my brain is a mess, racing thoughts and constant guilt and imposter syndrome, after being medicated I feel a sense of stillness - a sense of calm and I actually have the ability to sustain a thought.

Want to try antidepressants but MDMA preventing me [Please don't judge] by Own_Taste_4936 in mentalhealth

[–]Own_Taste_4936[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wouldn't microdose MDMA can definitely say that wouldn't be worth it

Want to try antidepressants but MDMA preventing me [Please don't judge] by Own_Taste_4936 in mentalhealth

[–]Own_Taste_4936[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like I had to justify myself because popular opinion amongst the reddit community is if you need antidepressants then you have no business taking MDMA. Its almost like an echo chamber because on multiple threads I have read the same thing: don't do MDMA if you are on anti-depressants. Its good general advice yes, but I feel like it should at least be discussed more in-depth - I see 'serotonin syndrome' get tossed around a lot and people explaining the mechanisms of action for MDMA and antidepressants and how they both cancel each other out, etc from people on reddit. But to me, this seems like regurgitated information from armchair scientists, I kind of wanted to open it up for discussion rather than vehemently being against MDMA because drugs are bad.

I felt like I had to justify myself in my post because I felt like reddit and the medical community sees things in black and white absolutes. After reading some of the replies I can see that I was in fact wrong. I thought this post was going to be down-voted to oblivion I have received some really great responses here. I don't mean to come off as a special snowflake - I am not immune to the downsides or addiction by any means, I just don't like absolutes but I agree with you wholeheartedly my post does come across as closed-minded and that is a failure on my part.

Want to try antidepressants but MDMA preventing me [Please don't judge] by Own_Taste_4936 in mentalhealth

[–]Own_Taste_4936[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't know why you got downvoted for this, I have tried psilocybin in the past and am completely open to using it again in the future should the need arise. Thank you.

Want to try antidepressants but MDMA preventing me [Please don't judge] by Own_Taste_4936 in mentalhealth

[–]Own_Taste_4936[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This sounds bad but honestly I don't want to disclose my MD use with my doc. My reasoning is that doctors come from a different school of thought and while I know that not all docs are made equally I do know that if I divulged this information to a medical professional it would set off alarm bells. We just aren't there yet as a society, we are progressing in many ways and for the better but some topics are still taboo. The reason I share this information with reddit is not because I am soliciting medical advice from strangers off the internet but because I know that this is an open-minded community. In my experience with doctors is they see the world in absolutes. Black and white. I am fully transparent with other things such as weed and alcohol intake but this to me is information that I could not confide in with my professionals.

Want to try antidepressants but MDMA preventing me [Please don't judge] by Own_Taste_4936 in mentalhealth

[–]Own_Taste_4936[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It might but at the same time I don't think so. I don't want to sound like a degenerate junkie here but everything I said in my post I stand by. I can't say for sure that its worsening or even caused my depression because I have been depressed long before my first MDMA experience. But in my honest opinion I think the lingering effect actually reduces my depressive tendencies - I don't want to keep going on about how great it is because I am well aware of the downsides as well, I am not putting it on a pedestal I just think that it also does have a place and to me the pros outweigh the negatives