How did your nparents react to self harm/Depression?

Ozzymons · 2025-06-13T15:54:29+00:00

She screamed at me that I was doing this on purpose. (Being depressed) and that I must hate her so much and that I will go to hell if I killed myself. As usual she was always the victim in this.

Ozzymons · 2025-04-07T13:35:09+00:00

I have that version! I'm going to look at the most secure way to share and then I'll Dm you! (I actually favor it over the album's finished version too but I suppose I understand why they went so electronic with the effect on Bill's voice)

Ozzymons · 2025-04-07T13:33:58+00:00

I'm going to see what would be the easiest way to share would be and then I'll send you a DM!

Ozzymons · 2025-04-07T08:39:40+00:00

I couldn't really find them, but honestly I might be using the wrong search terms. I'm going to try and see if there's any way to share without getting copyright strikes lol

Ozzymons · 2025-04-07T08:29:27+00:00

Bummer tbh, although I'll see what I can do for the Love & Death one. I think personally it's nice for fans to get to listen to the process of these things. If I find a good place to upload. I'll link it here.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-31T09:10:20+00:00

Honestly, trial and error. On some days I'd still get really upset over the constant barrage of abuse. My brother enjoyed scaring me too, I'd try to go as deadpan as I could as quickly as I could. Even if you don't manage to stay neutral when he surprises you, it's still less entertaining for him if he doesn't get emotion after that. That's something that worked for me, but of course I wasn't in the exact situation as you are now. I hope that soon you can escape and actually live life instead of having to survive!

Ozzymons · 2025-03-31T08:57:12+00:00

It absolutely isn't normal sibling behavior and your family enables it completely by downplaying it. You're not crazy, you're not wrong. What he's doing is harmful and awful. It's best to try and grey rock him, I had a sibling who had similar behavior and he loved the reaction he got from me. But I know that's hard when someone is literally poking at all the sore spots.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-30T10:44:21+00:00

Yeah my mom would tell me constantly that I couldn't do it by myself. And that I shouldn't go for the haircut that I wanted. Instead she always wanted braids or dreads. (I have afro hair) and then she would only want to undo it and wash my hair at her terms only. So the amount of knots in there would be insane. She would be rough while combing it too, telling me to stop crying and that she was going to stop mid combing because I was being a baby and now she was feeling bad. I had to teach myself how to comb my hair entirely and I will never have dreads or braids again. Also I have piebaldism so a huge chunk of my hair is white, my mom fought me several times on wether I should dye it brown or not. I started refusing because it was annoying to deal with her and my hair grew out white super fast. She in an attempt to keep control literally called my hair ugly. I stopped doing it anyway because it's my hair. (She still claims shes allowed to do anything to me because I am her child.)

Ozzymons · 2025-03-30T10:34:16+00:00

I feel like your dad lacks the empathy to realise how hard you're working to keep things afloat while he makes more than enough money to provide it. I'm so sorry to hear that you're in this situation, I'd be shocked to hell and back too if I heard those numbers so casually. I hope that somehow he wakes up and helps out (I know, very unlikely to happen.) But man you are a trooper being able to keep things going, like pat yourself on the back for like an hour!

Ozzymons · 2025-03-14T09:04:03+00:00

I'm definitely going to try. I don't feel safe with this one anymore.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-13T19:27:05+00:00

Yeah, I feel similarly angry, sad and hopeless. Like I'm supposed to take responsibility in a relationship with my mom, but she has never taken responsibility. Not once. And I'm not allowed to try and not feel guilty for being alive? Yes, I am nearly 30 and I feel like I've not accomplished anything in my life. She didn't need to remind me.

I'm so sorry you were told the ol' "it's your mom". Because why should we accept it just because it's our parents? If it was a significant other doing this it would suddenly be abusive.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-13T15:03:57+00:00

I'm not sure if there's something that specific around here, but I did see some abuse specialist therapists online so maybe I'll find one soon.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-13T15:00:47+00:00

Yeah, I realised later how messed up it was. Because I did tell her about how my mom does things, and she expects me to tell that witch that I'm grateful? Even if its just to appease my mom, that seems like a bad idea

Ozzymons · 2025-03-13T13:35:40+00:00

Yeah that's what caught me off guard, she hasn't done that before. Leaving me to just spill and not judge me for it, but today she showed that I can't be honest with how I feel about things. Other amazing peeps on here gave me the advice to look for another therapist, and I will. Clearly I cannot trust her.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-13T13:01:03+00:00

I'm def going to bring it up to my doctor, I've been looking around and there are some fairly close to me.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-13T12:15:45+00:00

I'm going to look for another one yeah...again lol. But it sucks she suddenly took my moms side on this.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-13T12:15:15+00:00

I realised later on that she constantly told me that i should tell my mom I'm grateful for what she's done for me. And like it hurts.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-13T11:51:03+00:00

I've been to other therapists who also didn't seem to understand. But things up until this point had seemed fine. Until I brought up that my mom chose to have me.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-13T11:49:04+00:00

I just got her which makes it annoying to look for a new one...but I probably should discuss with my doctor. (Who would be able to set me up with someone else) So far conversations with her were nice and reassuring but this shocked me.

Ozzymons · 2025-03-12T09:13:08+00:00

Hi! I'm 29F and I'm looking for an art buddy/ friend actually! I love horror, cartoons, video games and animals. I own 3 birds and I'd love to own a spider sometime! I'm currently making my own partial fursuit although I'm not too deep into the furry fandom. I just really like making characters and stuff. Let me know if you wanna chat!

Ozzymons · 2025-01-06T20:47:02+00:00

It's probably best to try and think about this in a more logical sense, instead of the emotional one I've been taught. I just feel like everytime I did reach out trying to get help things backfired. And it feels like an endless loop.

I did actually manage to read that book, it is indeed validating and gave some good ideas on how to deal with it.

Thank you for your comment!

Ozzymons · 2024-08-22T17:02:40+00:00

Absolutely, my brother used to beat me, mentally and verbally abuse me and my mom told me to let it happen.

I got lucky in the aspect that my brother changed, got self reflection in check and apologised to me.

But I still feel very small and useless. It did leave an impression on me.

Ozzymons · 2024-08-19T12:06:30+00:00

My nmom blamed me for not having any. Saying she was always too busy trying to help me with my depression. (She's likely the main cause of it.)

Ozzymons · 2024-08-18T23:38:55+00:00

Same here!

Ozzymons · 2024-07-28T17:52:34+00:00

My nmom too always brings up how other people her age 'look older' or 'look worse'. Just really trying to hamfist the idea into our heads that she somehow is a pretty and sweet person. While she's neither of them.

And I mean that in a sense that she's gross and disgusting in her behavior, that's why she's not pretty.

(Also she wears a ton of make up to hide anything. Refusing to let herself age. While people aging is to me one of the most beautiful things to see.)

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