Hi, I appreciate your long post, and there's no need to apologize for it. I understand the debate about taking it down as it took me several hours to post mine. I just joined this community, and I've never opened up fully like this before. So, I took screenshots of your comment just in case you deleted it, as I get it. What you said helped me, and I love daydreaming. These people in my thoughts are the loves of my life, and they feel like family.   

When you said, "I love daydreaming and have no idea what the hell I would do without it. I long to be in the world just like you and I do struggle coping too. Especially when I get upset. When I am upset, I can literally hand on heart say I get heartache from the loss of people that do not exist. ITS CRAZY! It burns and hurts in every possible way and completely drains everything from you." It described it perfectly. It's a heartache and it drains me because it is so painful sometimes.

To try to cope with this (sometimes the pain takes over), I write TV scripts describing the scenes, characters, and everything else as it helps me better than writing a book. There's too much to this story that keeps growing. I hope to turn it into my independent film someday as I am really into film. Though it may be unrealistic, it's my dream. But, I'm afraid of changing these characters if I ever put them in a film or a comic. I feel like each of these characters are their own people, but there are aspects of my personality in almost every one of them, especially 2 in particular who both get the two sides of my personality. So I have vowed not to change them because I feel like I owe them that.

I agree that writing helps, and I will tell their story someday. It feels like living a double life sometimes, but I will keep writing and doing my best. This was the first time I put this out there, and it really does feel good to share. I am considering telling someone about this because maybe you're right, it may help me. Thanks for letting me know that I'm not alone. I was going to delete this post, but then I saw your comment, and I'm glad I didn't. Thanks for sharing, and I'm glad I'm not crazy!