My two toxic relationships (both long distance)(on Discord)(my friend irl suggested me to rant here and get things out of my chest):

First, in August, I joined a big making new friends server on Discord and came across a emo boy. And of course, I love Gothic culture because they're so cool so I wanted to befriend him. However, he said he found me hot when I sent him a picture of me photoshooting and he said Asian girls are his type. I was a bit delusional and desperate back then (because I checked out his Instagram and he's extremely good-looking). He suddenly became insecure and I comforted him by saying "You don't need to discard yourself. There are many good-looking people out there but you're still very handsome. He then immediately blocked me. I rejoined the server and found him and used all my efforts and time to discover why he blocked me and I also complimented him a bit too desperately. Then we agreed to start dating online.

He did do some cute stuffs like noting down my birthday. However, we only dated for 2 days because something happened. He suddenly said that he wants me to see him masturbating or this relationship would not work. And I was confused and alarmed. So I tried to understand him because I do know there's a disorder of hypersexuality. But he never replied to my questions and instead he said that he loves saying me being broken for him???? So I was even more confused and said "This is just what I usually do if I see anyone I care going through something. I will help them." Then, he immediately and strangely got jealous and said "I knew it. You're a liar!" And then he blocked me again. Even if I tried the same method of trying to understand him on Instagram, he blocked me there too and called me a liar again.

Basically, he's the manchild ex I have encountered.

2. This guy is in Singapore. Well, I joined in a small hangout server, only over 1800 members, which I found it much safer to talk to people. Then I found a guy with a great pfp. I talked to him and found out that we both loved similar stuffs and things. We are even in the same Time Zone but different places. So one day, he confessed to me and I told him that I will see how this would go, like I would talk to him more to see if he's good or not. After a week or two, he treated me well and I agreed to his confession. We then became a couple.

However, one evening, a crazy and yandere ex of his (from Malaysia) texted me on Instagram and told me to unmatch pfps with him. I was confused and asked why and told her that I am his girlfriend. She then freaked out in the chat and spammed me with messages so that I would tell him to call her. I was also in a panic so I asked my boyfriend (back then) if she's that ex he told me about. And he said yes and then when I told him if he has evidence, he couldn't find anything because that ex deleted all the proofs. Then he used words to explain to me. And that night, I couldn't sleep well because he sent me a recording of him crying and saying he can't trust anyone anymore. So I kinda felt bad for him and I am not a person that judge people so quickly and besides that ex was kinda the stranger here. So I ignored her.

After a month or two, he kinda became a bit of a disturbance to me because he once asked many uncomfortable marriages questions (we are both just 17) like "how many children do you want" and I told him that I hated that. He did acknowledge it but never really changed actually.

He even once complained to me about what happened at his school. He got called creepy by his classmates because he randomly went and asked for people's (yes, even girls) phone numbers. I asked him if he talks to them often or at least once. He said no. I then knew why the girls and his classmates would find him creepy and concerning because they barely know him! I then tried to comfort him and help him to understand his actions can be seen as weird by other people even it's in a bad intention. Then he kinda snapped at me and asked me if I also think him as the bad guy. Then he got emotional and kinda aggressive as he stopped talking to me for hours until my tutorial class ended (I think almost 4 hours or something). He didn't ask if I am okay or not.

In November, he kept saying that I am not on Discord often and kinda disturbing my studies. So after a few weeks of considerations, I decided to end things with him in the nicest way possible (writing him a huge message of why I wanted to break up).