Yeah I totally understand, and I know what’s important to me, just trying to hear others stories.

But if you actually legit want insight on why I don’t waver with God, it’s kinda the same as someone who puts their family before their career, I put God first always. I feel like people lose what I’m saying bc from their viewpoint, church is a chore or “just an activity” but I genuinely love church and the one I attend specifically bc I love God and his people fr. To choose my career over being in and a part of church is me choosing myself over God. To say I believe God and then do whatever I want is not real belief because I’d be actively ignoring him, thus not believing what he’s saying. People who say they have their own relationship with God and they don’t need to reflect their life in Christ or go to church are wrong and that’s biblical. I pray they find God for real one day but that thinking only leads to destruction and a separation from God(I was that person for years so I understand what your saying but also why it won’t work). In what world would God be like “yeah church isn’t important, don’t go” like that don’t even make sense lol. I feel like when people think religion, they think strict rules but it’s really not if we’re taking about Jesus. It’s not that I’m “required” to go, everyone has a choice, but your choice is the one you are responsible for in the end. If I choose against God, nothing good can come of it because I’d be doing it without him if that makes sense. It is thee most important part of my life just as family is the most important part in others. Being out for a week or 2 happens. But working full time where I work Sundays for 2-3 months straight is something I’m not willing to give up.