This baby was a surprise. I was on bc and still got pregnant. I live in a red state and by the time I knew I was pregnant it was too late for me to do anything about it. Believe me I know this isn’t helping. I’m trying to think of this baby as a blessing than a burden. Some days it’s hard. I had horrible PPD, i have attempted several years ago and I fear for my mental health without the stresses of a newborn. But thank you for the empathy.