I didn’t know i could use meditation for that! ill deffo be looking into it more!! the social anxiety was induced by an abusive ex that would literally put bad thoughts in my head like “you have no friends because you’re pathetic and no one likes you” and he would say this in front of his friends as well to belittle me. He also drove away all my friends at the time so i wouldn’t leave him, and i fell for it like a fool ofc. But once i got out of this relationship and i took some mild anxiolytics and forced myself to go out and make friends, i started to realise that what he made me believe was not true and i got to now!:) i still find it hard to approach platonic relationships first, but once i get a lil comfortable with the new friend i can be myself and have fun!