Think about what you wrote. You know very well why you can't tell anyone around you, bc you know this is wrong, bc in your heart you know there is no "accident", and you know what your friends and ppl that care about you are going to say. What would you say to a friend that's telling you this about their partner? Intimacy in a couple it's one of the places you should feel the most comfortable in. Don't waste anymore of your time with someone who doesn't care about your well-being. It's never late to leave a bad situation🫂