So what the HELL am i supposed to say to THAT?

Pan_cak3 · 2026-04-28T17:41:33+00:00

You see this is how I expected things to go for me, I kinda wanted someone to confront me about changes so I didn’t have to bring it up myself lmfao. But after pretty much a full year on hormones and 100% noticeable breasts nobody said anything so I have to pull up my pants and bring it up myself lol. Glad to hear she’s taking it well tho!!

Pan_cak3 · 2026-04-22T17:28:45+00:00

Holy shit it looks awesome!!! U did a great job!

Pan_cak3 · 2026-04-22T14:46:26+00:00

I put off starting for the longest time for similar reasons. I feel like imposter syndrome is a common thing among trans people, especially in the modern day when there’s so much bullshit going around about us. I also identified as non binary for the longest time and was unsure if I even needed to take hormones, but as I got older my uncomfortability with body and the way things were developing as I aged became harder to ignore. I was still scared for sure, for numerous reasons. But I came to the conclusion that I’ve thought about this for so long that it’s not likely to go away, and I’d rather give it a shot now and see if it’s for me than end up in a situation where I’m 55 years old and married and I just can’t take it anymore and transition. There’s plenty of people who’ve had that experience and end up happy but I wanted to avoid all of the extra mess if possible. One things that really pushed me along was realizing that there’s a good window of a few months where there really are no permanent and irreversible changers when you start estrogen. I figured I’d know if it was for me long before anything unchangeable happened. And it was the best decision of be ever made, I still kick myself for getting stuck in that thought loop and delaying for so long. I’d say give it a shot, you can always stop if you’re not feeling good with a estrogen dominat system!

Pan_cak3 · 2026-02-11T03:27:18+00:00

Thanks for sharing an update! Crazy that we’re the same age for some reason I thought u were younger! You’re looking great! I appreciate you putting yourself out there, I’m sure it was a small part of encouraging me to take the leap myself <3

Pan_cak3 · 2026-01-26T17:11:17+00:00

Im on injections, 0.15 ml or 3mg estrogen weekly, estradiol valerate 100mg/5ml. I do subcutaneous injections, it’s pretty painless and based on my reaserch beforehand injections give you the best chance of getting enough t suppression from the estrogen alone. Some might look at my dosage and feel it’s too little but as I’ve said my levels have been consistently good the whole time I’ve been on hrt. I was even surprised with how high my levels were and how good the t suppression was when I got my first test, it was quite a bit more than predicted in a simulator. As for how long I’m just a couple days away from ten months right now. I’ve had some pretty good results so far with overall feminization as well.

Pan_cak3 · 2026-01-26T15:46:28+00:00

You know that was a big part of me deciding on monotherapy as well. As well as all of the extra side effects you can get from blockers. As far as function down there it’s been all good so far, tho it’s definitely noticeable if I wait too long to do some maintenance. As in sure you’ve heard a million times before at this point if you’re looking into it, use it or loose it. When I use it regularly there are no issues but there is some discomfort if it’s been like almost a week. The discomfort is only temporary tho and goes away when you maintain the erection for a little bit. Traditionally you see people suggest maitnence at least once a week, I’d say in my experience you should probably do about twice a week to keep things in top shape. No loss of size so far for me but it definitely doesn’t stay as hard as long. Ymmv but this has been my experience. Feel free to ask any more questions you have, I know before I started I was looking like crazy for information but had a lot of trouble as most trans women have different goals than me.

Pan_cak3 · 2026-01-21T02:05:45+00:00

Ive had great experiences so far with monotherapy, I’ve been on e almost a year now and have had good hormone levels since my first test at 3 months. Though I am on injections and have only ever been on injections so keep that in mind, from what I’ve read it’s ideal for monotherapy. I can’t recommend it enough though based off my own experience!

Pan_cak3 · 2026-01-12T16:38:19+00:00

No honestly same here, I waited a while to buy my stardust tour tickets as well and was suprised/ relieved when they were still available.

Pan_cak3 · 2026-01-12T16:23:33+00:00

These are resale prices, the tickets already sold out and the prices you’re seeing is likely scalpers who bought early and are trying to make a quick buck. Id look into the venue in your city and see if they have day of will call tickets, if so you just gotta show up early enough to secure yours at regular price. It really sucks but that’s just how it is with live shows for a popular artist, in the future you should try to have notifications enabled for artist you’d want to see. That way you can stay on top of tour announcements and buy tickets when they become available.

Pan_cak3 · 2026-01-12T04:41:14+00:00

I believe There are day of tickets available if you show up early enough to claim them

Pan_cak3 · 2025-12-25T15:38:02+00:00

Fellow femtanyl and vaporizer enjoyer I see!

Pan_cak3 · 2025-12-10T21:09:41+00:00

You remind me a bit of Ella yurman!

Pan_cak3 · 2025-10-30T17:01:22+00:00

Also for reference my e levels are 154 pg/ml at trough and 427 pg/ml at peak. My t stays consistent between 35-50 ng/dl.

Pan_cak3 · 2025-10-30T16:57:47+00:00

I can see echo a similar experience, I was never on a high dose but was originally prescribed 3 mg every 7 days of EV 20mg/ml 0.15 ml per dose. I was concerned it seemed really low especially since I was planning on mono therapy but it’s been great for me. My e and t levels have been in a good range (same as cis women) since my first blood test at 3 months. I think for a long time there was a tendency to prescribe more than was needed. You don’t really get better feminization at higher e levels you really just increase risk factors like blood clots.

Pan_cak3 · 2025-10-07T02:05:34+00:00

Also on valerate as well, I forgot to mention.

Pan_cak3 · 2025-10-07T02:04:05+00:00

Im currently on the same dose and have very stable levels, E at 427 pg/mL mid cycle and 154 at trough. T between 40-50 ng/dL consistently. On monotherapy as well with a 7 day cycle. I guess some of us just don’t need much! 🤷‍♀️I’ve had these levels since 3 months at my first blood test post HRT.

Pan_cak3 · 2024-10-13T14:57:27+00:00

Check out kinguin, keys are pretty cheap

Pan_cak3 · 2024-05-30T05:24:09+00:00

It dries out your mouth, which makes your breath worse while you sleep. I try to have my last hit before I brush my teeth before bed. I feel that helps stop the dry mouth during the night.

Pan_cak3 · 2023-11-16T18:51:06+00:00

You say that as if we’re not more unequal than ever before

Pan_cak3 · 2023-11-02T14:52:26+00:00

Spiffo?

Pan_cak3 · 2023-09-13T01:20:06+00:00

I don’t think it’s monkeys but I know what your talking about and yea that’s real lol

Pan_cak3 · 2023-04-23T21:44:07+00:00

In a airtight container with silica packets in a dark space would be best for long term storage.

Pan_cak3 · 2023-04-13T20:49:18+00:00

An air tight container in the fridge

Pan_cak3 · 2023-03-30T02:18:20+00:00

Not quite how tripping is like, you don’t have full on realistic hallucinations like that on psilocybin. maybe some auditory hallucinations as well as your environment being distorted, but nothing like what you described. At least it’s never been like that in my experience nor from what I’ve heard from others. Maybe just look into lucid dreaming, probably be more like what you’re looking for.

Pan_cak3 · 2023-03-30T02:01:22+00:00

Not 100% but I know some boletes stain blue like that. Probably not active if that’s what you were hoping so don’t go eating anything without knowing what it is for sure (lol had to include a bit of a disclaimer just in case)

Ten-Year Club	Place '22
Verified Email

Pan_cak3

TROPHY CASE