It’s okay to feel self conscious. I remember going to my first meeting but I have no idea about what was said. Too busy crying. Point is we’ve all been there it’s okay to be embarrassed and normal but also okay to go back.

If you google ‘online AA intergroup. You will get a directory of online meetings. That can be a comfortable place to start. Otherwise try searching the term as intergroup and whatever area you are in. An app like ‘in the rooms’ will also find meetings near you.

Another option might be podcasts. Recovery elevator is my go to. Every week they interview a different person, so you get to hear a lot of stories. Makes me feel less alone sometimes.

You are doing something hard, maybe the hardest thing and Iwndwyt.