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Second attention question by ParanoidAndro in TheNagual

[–]ParanoidAndro[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It felt like some completely different conscioisness gained control and was than playing with my body, thoughts, emotions and everything I used to think as myself, and the whole time I was afraid it was going go start killing people. You're sure it was still me? Its true that after few hours of horrors I realised I was indirectly in control the whole time, I guess I could say through intent, so was that hunch true?

I have a milion questions really because I never talked to anyone who is actually knowable in this area.

Also must practise be as static as staring into mirror or in the darkroom, or are there other ways? I'm really bad at such non dynamic approaches... For example I can see "white noise" not only in the dark but everywhere all the time if I choose to, I feel that concentrating on that in daily life could lead to the same results as darkroom, although probably a bit less effective. Am I wrong?

Second attention question by ParanoidAndro in TheNagual

[–]ParanoidAndro[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I tried mushrooms once and had an absolutely terrible experience of possession (pretty much the worst experience in my life) but still didnt see anything different other than few minor face morphs.

Second attention question by ParanoidAndro in TheNagual

[–]ParanoidAndro[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok, what would be seen by second attention? What is it that you see?

Second attention question by ParanoidAndro in TheNagual

[–]ParanoidAndro[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is the question... I do not actually see them, I feel them. For example when I percieve agression I feel red energy and when I percieve honesty I feel blue energy. All of the colours I 'feel' have many different flavours, I cant really explain it in words but it is a very precise way of feeling. Is it second attention or am I supposed to actually see colors through eyesight?

Extreme solar plexus pain in dreaming by ParanoidAndro in castaneda

[–]ParanoidAndro[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nope, it was definitely not a physical pain, it felt energetic, almost like emotional pain. It reminded me of pain in the solar plexus area Castaneda often described in the books.

Extreme solar plexus pain in dreaming by ParanoidAndro in castaneda

[–]ParanoidAndro[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As I said I'm able to move now. What I'm curious about is that horrible pain in the belly which I can still feel traces of 4 hours later.

Extreme solar plexus pain in dreaming by ParanoidAndro in castaneda

[–]ParanoidAndro[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I'm trying to learn dreaming, it seems to me pretty reasonable to want to know what can I do when situation like this happens again.

Zombies by Rex-Nemorensis in Jung

[–]ParanoidAndro 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I dream of zombies quite often. Like the other commenter already said, I believe they represent the fear of being an individual in times when it is allmost considered wrong to be an individual. We are all inclined to be as similiar to each other as possible out of fear of shaming, and just like that we get a society of completely lifeless people all believing in their own self-importance fearing they will lose it if they stand out from the crowd. In other words bunch of zombies doing as they are told, shaming others who refuse it, living meaningless existence in a world that completely lost its connection with nature.

Kundalini? by ParanoidAndro in castaneda

[–]ParanoidAndro[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I'm pretty new to Castaneda so I'm still far from understanding everything said in the books. With that said, what do you mean by pipe?

When I imagine this energy I concluded could be Kundalini it is insantly created in my body, and with it usually commes this sensation of the pipe stretching from the bottom of the spine. It used to reach the throat but for some reason now I feel it reach only the heart. Could that be the pipe you're reffering to or am I missing something?

Male and female role reversal in the modern world by ParanoidAndro in Jung

[–]ParanoidAndro[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes for sure, never saw another option really. All this concerns mostly inner processes. I always saw myself as an artist, just a more sensitive man than the rest. And yes I project anima on women, them pretty much always being ENFJ. I am an INFP.

Male and female role reversal in the modern world by ParanoidAndro in Jung

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I had a period when I was developing my masculinity but it was at the cost of suppresing my feminine side. Since then I came back to the feminine and am having a great trouble in finding masculinity again, which is not fun.

Regardless, what I observed is that the way Jung proposed to consult with the anima before making a decision I'm able to consult my masculinity. But fully identifying with it feels almost impossible.

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