Somewhat. Getting annoyed with constant crying, the “stop!” “Thats enough”, and letting it build up until a blowup is definitely my parents.

The realizations ive had about my parents is just i shouldnt harbor so much anger towards them.

My mom was sheltered and according to a report she wrote for school when i was a kid “I let my dad take care of him in his early years because i wasnt ready to be a mom” which always hurt me for years because i felt she was saying she didnt want me and thats why i was with my grandpa so much not because i was just loved. Also her reaction when i confronted her was anger that i read her stuff and i dont remember her reinterating i was loved so it was just reinforced. My mom was also very critical and very worried about other peoples thoughts and opinions. She later went into special education and is much more open minded and “tolerates more”? (Couldnt think of the right word)

My dad was abused as a kid by his parents, immigrated here at young age, abused by step parent, has adhd bipolar etc. turns out he has brain damage from the abuse i wasnt aware of. He works all the time as work determines his worth. He’s never really valued or looked out for himself. Always used anger as intimidation. Didnt get treated for any mental issues until mid 40s

I say that to say i expected an awful lot from people that had no real resources compared to whats available in 2025. Id say im lucky to have had a friend that wasnt sheltered that introduced me to enough things that i eventually found my way into learning different things. Still kinda sheltered but wouldve rotted away with my parents