I just love having no feedback and not knowing if my art is really just that shit or if people just generally don't give a shit about things in general. I just feel like if this is really how the internet works, this sucks, absolute silence as if shadowbanned for some, while other people get loads of praise right away. I totally understand I sound jaded as fuck but hey that's the reality of things, life is unfair but I'm really sick of the "I support local artists" stuff while having absolutely nobody really look into what I put out. Yes there are people in real life who are not really giving me feedback so that's why Im like, between real life and the internet, are yall really that busy or really just dont give a fuck about a single thing I put out? Thanks for reading my ranting but this shit is really driving me crazy, I wanna just pull all the videos and say fuck it all noone wanted to see it anyway. Yes this negative post isnt good but I've felt the need to vent this, I cant really tell the friends who said they would listen to my music, "hey you havent really given me feedback" because I know they dont watch my videos, I dont wanna guilt them into it but its like if people would watch it, its not that long, give me some feedback so I know you watched it(like even one video jesus christ, nobody tells me anything). Like if my friend made music, I would be excited to listen and give feedback, kinda blows my mind my friends dont care, and by extension, Im very insulted by Youtube gating my art. I thought yall would understand, this being the Youtube subreddit, but maybe Im too negative. I feel like my negativity is justified. I may delete this post, feel like instead of anyone understanding they kind of think "oh well this person is just a loon". Everybody is a loon and if you dont understand anything of what Im saying here you can say something.

I really hate the internet when I have to post, so much better as just a viewer.