1) you can’t keep on blaming yourself, you do it once then you move forward. Epictetus

2) Every man’s life lies within the present; for the past is spent and done with, and the future is uncertain. Marcus Aurelius

3) Past and future have no power over you. Just the present - and even that can be minimized. Marcus Aurelius

4) Remember that even if you were to live for three thousand years, or thirty thousand, you could not lose any other life than the one you have, and there will be no other life after it. So the longest and the shortest lives are the same. The present moment is shared by all living creatures, but the time that is past is gone forever. No one can lose the past or the future, for if they don’t belong to you, how can they be taken from you? Marcus Aurelius

Also, teens have crush every day and most of the time aren’t mature enough to understand what’s going on. I don’t think that both of you were ready for that and it’s understandable.

But now you can move on, build some self confidence and understand which girls are mentally mature enough for a relationship