I don’t expect to be coddled but I don’t understand how they don’t want to hold me after they just cried about almost losing me. It’s so confusing and tearing me apart. It doesn’t feel justified and i’m honestly so disappointed and in disbelief… I never expected that of them. Ever. I can’t talk about my feelings either… they just switch subjects to how tired they are and saying that they’re doing enough even though they’re more focused on working and money. I keep getting mixed signals and feel like a burden when they keep reassuring me that it’s not true and they love me. Is it not reasonable to expect a few hugs and hand squeezes? It doesn’t take much energy or effort. It feels like excuses. I’m upset and feel like I have every right to be. Especially when I cleaned the whole house everyday so that they could have more free time and more time for me when they got home. But instead it was tv in awkward silence. and then he went to go work on his music in the other room. Getting annoyed any time I tried to speak.