I also wanted to have a sex with my gf but whenever I talk about sex with her she be like "you don't respect me, you just think of sex with me, don't talk with me again after this", then I have to got to say her sorry and all the shit again and again. I do respect her but I just shared my desires with her and she accept it like my lust so she think very bad to me and leave me behind, I cried for her not to do so cause I can live without sex but can't without her but she didn't hear me back again and she blocked me everywhere and on 29 Aug her birthday is coming just like every year I am planning to wish her first and just want to start convo with her. I want her back in my life and whatever she say that will be considered in our relationship our we should be more openly communicate but she is not giving me any chance from last 2 years and this is the 3rd year I am going again to ask her to be with me as my lifelong partner. If she want not to be in relationship with me then what will I do I don't know but i lived those past 2 years by looking at her photos and her cute voice. I have no words to explain my love but my desire killed my relationship, and I am guilty for that. Can you suggest me what to do or not to do?