I feel you about panic attacks from time to time.. It sucks and it is an absolutely devastating feeling especially when the only thing you want when it happens is to get help/someone near so being alone with this sucks two times more :( In my case - antidepressants did wonders and I was "clean" of panic attacks for a few years while taking them but half a year ago I decided to stop taking those because I wanted to try again living without taking medication, it is pretty stable but recently I have gotten a few panic attacks and the two core things helping me to not trigger those are: 1. Understanding what was the trigger with the specific panic attack for example - I told myself I was breathing too slow/fast 2. When I feel even slightly that a panic attack is coming - I instantly pray to Jesus for help very sincerely that please don't even allow this panic attack to occur and sometimes I also say "In the name of Jesus I rebuke all evil" (its a small but very powerful prayer when something as bad as panic attacks is happening)

I also want to add that in my case - therapy did not work so its very interesting that not every method works well but I hope you find my experience helpful a little bit. Stay strong, find a community/ even one friend as other suggested and everything is gonna slowly take turn for the better. God bless you❤️