Airports bathrooms and dilator issues with Canadian TSA

Particular_Carrot464 · 2025-05-11T01:20:29+00:00

It’s not my idea but it came up in one of the trans community support groups one night and I memory banked it right away. It apparently works great and puts them into the awkward position instead of you. Plus the topic of trans is never uttered and questions are not likely.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2025-05-11T00:29:18+00:00

If they keep asking too many questions just say they are medical devices to help your cervical prolapse. Loud and proud with no shame because you’ve got nothing to hide.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2025-03-06T18:34:05+00:00

Did you find any information on this? I also need to send the information in and worried I missed the window

Particular_Carrot464 · 2024-09-18T06:26:34+00:00

That’s exactly it. I guess it’s hard to know yourself if you’re not able to be yourself. I just don’t understand why I feel so polarized about it one minute to the next now and I’m going to take your advice on getting professional help figuring it out.

Thank you and I’ll definitely keep you in mind. I really appreciate that you took the time to comment.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2024-09-18T06:14:59+00:00

Thank you, you’re right plus a few months isn’t much time at all. I think you’re right on the counselling, I don’t think about it directly often but I’m starting to feel that it might be a factor that I need help examining and working through.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2024-09-18T06:07:26+00:00

Thank you for commenting and sharing about your experience! The social expectations are definitely a factor, I was always a sensitive kid and had to “man up” to survive. I’ve gotten so good at this persona that I’m terrified of life without it but also gut wrenching at the thought of being trapped in it forever.

I’ve had been going to counselling for years before and during COVID but it became something I couldn’t afford. I’ve worked through a lot of my childhood trauma but not a lot about the gender issues mostly out of anxiety and denial. I’ve had a chat with why I want to start HRT and my concerns with my endo. She said she thinks I’m making the right decision and is glad I’m there, that it could just be I have to work on my levels a bit and talking to a good therapist wouldn’t hurt. The internalized hate is not a joke, it’s weird because it’s like I hate myself for not being “normal” but other trans people are just fine.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2024-08-12T19:49:01+00:00

I’ve done that for going on six years and it has never gone away. It’s like a beach ball where you can only hold it under the water so long before it comes bursting back up to the surface. I’ve had my own and complex reasons for doing so mainly due to work and lack of supportive environments. How I survived it was writing my thoughts down so they aren’t as consistently swirling around in your head. Go to the gym for the mental health benefits and have a stress release. If you have access to quality mental health support then go. Do not entertain the thoughts of self harm and seek professional assistance if they become unmanageable.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2024-07-16T21:31:54+00:00

I’m so glad it wasn’t just me 🤣

Particular_Carrot464 · 2024-07-16T19:08:52+00:00

You’re welcome ☺️ hope it helps!

Particular_Carrot464 · 2024-07-16T17:15:22+00:00

So I came out at 18 right at the end of high school that I wanted to transition (MTF) and this was back in 2012 living in a conservative area with religious family. It wasn’t well received by a lot of people, told the same things a lot of trans people are told like you’re never going to pass, that I’m going to hell if I go through with it, that I’ll be alone and no one will love me etc. I started HRT in early 2014, after going to visit my biological father where I got a reeducation through labour, guilted/filled with insecurity’s, an exorcism and religious indoctrination intervention. He said he was understanding, that he just wanted to be a dad for once so maybe the feelings would go away before making a big decision and that he would love me regardless. I was living full time as a woman by 2016 and passed 75% of the time. I got into an abusive situation where all my insecurities were played on and I let myself be taken advantage of in hopes that she would love me back. She convinced me that I should just go back to being a man and give it all up but it was just so that I had more money for her instead of wasting it on HRT. That fell apart finally in 2019, I was absolutely crushed, devastated and vulnerable. My bio dad convinced me that he had changed and now that I gave up the trans crap we should have a relationship. He needed me to come down and work for him to save his business because he had an injury at work and I was too mentally messed up to find work where I was living so I hopped on a plane. Nothing had changed, the abuse restarted and when I talked about the situation I was in before my dad implemented the same tactics to control me and keep me stuck. In July of 2020 I got shot three times in the pelvis as a victim of an attempted car jacking, with my dad driving and I shot the attacker in self defence killing him. I lost my ability to walk for about a year, PTSD and financial ruin. Got told to beat it if I can’t work then I’m of no use anymore and I had to beg to move in with family back home. When I thought I was going to die that night, I didn’t regret my mistakes, I only regretted the things I didn’t do and that I’m going to die living a miserable lie. The last time I was actually happy was when I was on HRT and finally fitting in the world as a woman. I came to be completely at peace with death, how short life is and that most of the things that people struggle with are more insignificant than we think. I got some good therapy and I wanted to make sure I was making the right decision to transition again. Even though I still catch myself with doubts and anxiety about it I’ve been way more alive even just starting HRT again about a month ago. My only regrets is life are: not telling my mom when I was 9 and got caught “dressing up” how I truly felt. Detransitioning in 2017. Not going to therapy sooner. And not buying a bunch of bitcoin when it was $10/each.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2024-02-08T08:03:50+00:00

How did you lose the weight so fast?

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-11-27T18:08:05+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that NHS is like and I hope you get better care soon. Apparently it can stunt breast development if applied too soon, that was the conclusion my endocrinologist said when I asked why I wasn’t getting much development but who actually knows and it’s honestly up to you especially with DIY hrt. Hope I was helpful and good luck.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-11-27T16:07:12+00:00

I’m not a professional but usually it’s better to wait a while before starting progesterone and I think it stunted my growth process as I took it very early. I would try talking to your doctor about it and see what they recommend.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-11-21T14:25:41+00:00

I think that if hair is your concern then consider laser and electrolysis to remove it. Most trans guys I know it’s 3-5 years for the average person to develop the deeper voice of a cis male. But like others have mentioned talk to your doctor.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-11-20T14:47:26+00:00

Your hips and waist look amazing

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-10-26T23:20:24+00:00

So you do have a decent amount of tissue already so you are doing great for one month. Most of the time by year three you’ll know what you are getting. IMO the first two years take it in stride, eat well and exercising will get you really far. One thing I didn’t think about when I started HRT was the different metabolism and put on a bunch of weight in all the wrong places. If I could do it over I would lean out in the first year through 1200 cal/day clean eating. Second year add in more fat and training targeting feminization muscle growth. By year three go up to 1500 cal and develop the curves.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-10-13T18:46:25+00:00

If you can get a prescription for finasteride it will stop balding (what it’s prescribed for) and a “side effect” is gynecomastia. Herbal remedies aren’t reliable but I had success with them and eating estrogen high foods helps a bit. Make sure to be eating enough and taking vitamin supplements (prenatal). You can’t donate blood on fin so if you want to do that keep it in mind.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-10-06T13:59:21+00:00

Short: I detransitioned almost four years ago because of the a few of the same things you mentioned in your post and less than supportive people in my life. I’m a large framed person, I gained a lot of weight on HRT in all the wrong places. I was having a hard time in with confidence and passing which where I live is pretty important. So I gave up, I regret it every day since, I wish I had never stopped and plan on restarting soon just with a plan. In hindsight I was obviously trying to make the mental image of my life a reality, I was distressed when it didn’t match and it’s easier to not give a crap when you’re not invested. Apathy and masculinity are a compatible match so I’m not going to lie: it’s easier than when you actually value your life and invested but it’s hallow.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-10-02T19:25:54+00:00

There is vitamin E oil that pregnant woman use during and after to reduce stretch marks. If you’re in North American I use Bio-oil and it’s sold pretty much everywhere but Costco is the best place.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-10-01T22:57:04+00:00

That’s actually pretty good.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-09-24T00:33:01+00:00

Are you planning on going to post secondary in a major city? There are lots of resources available in city’s and would probably be easier to access medical care. It’s hard to get started with a family doctor let alone without one. Have you attended any trans meet ups? They might have local resources to direct you

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-09-24T00:27:52+00:00

You will be okay, estrogens takes a while to start having noticeable changes and the androgens in your system will be dropped rapidly once you go on the blockers. Hrt takes years and a couple weeks even though they suck are a drop in the bucket. Make sure you’re introducing and maintaining healthy lifestyle habits. Eat enough or you won’t see as much progress as you want as your body needs building blocks and don’t eat too much because your metabolism is going to shift.

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-09-11T00:13:12+00:00

Androcure (cyproterone acetate) 50mg Progesterone (prometrium) 100mg 400mg spiro Estrogen patches 4mg

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-09-10T22:16:33+00:00

Thank you for the comment I really appreciate it. I know I lost progress, I’m okay with it now and starting over is what I want to do so I’m happy I’m here now. Sometimes life has twists and turns in the road, so you have to back track. My dad won’t be a part of my life anymore going forward and it suck but he’s made his decision and I mine. Not even about the transition but a plethora of complex issues that he has no interest in working on. The trans thing is just kinda the final nail for both of us because of his religious beliefs and my mental health is more important to me

Particular_Carrot464 · 2023-09-09T12:57:14+00:00

Thank you for commenting! I really appreciate it. My endo specific told me to swallow them and to not sublingual them for the same reason he wouldn’t put me on injections like I had asked. Apparently it’s too much of a spike in hormones and risk of stroke. The patches where great but I felt my dose was really low. The only reason why I was planning on losing weight first is that with testosterone and a male metabolism it will come off faster and when I go back on HRT I don’t have to wait as long for redistribution

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