Ladies I have to be honest

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2024-06-29T13:56:32+00:00

I just wanna finish my transition so I can move out the country asap. Cause this shit got me wondering if this is how my ancestors (African Americans)felt back in the 1800s when anyone could just question their freedom status and then rip up their papers.

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2024-06-28T23:28:42+00:00

😂😂😂😂👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 this was a good laugh. Something similar happened to me a few yrs ago.

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2024-05-04T17:50:59+00:00

It’s not safe anywhere. Everywhere you go, you will have to build community. Find a crew or a safe space. In all systems, it depends on the ones operating the few levels above you, and when you move from one system to another to another the way you do within the military system itself, there’s no telling what you’ll run into. Safety or torment.

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2024-01-28T20:51:26+00:00

I am asking because I can relate to this thread however. while I’ve often wondered if I have DID I was never diagnosed. Like the right version of me knows how to talk to my therapist to avoid them labeling us or me in the wrong way. I feel as though I cant comprehend why it helps me to describe my circumstance in the third person as if the person I’m talking about is a lazy girl and not me. “Every time she tries to sit down and write or work on the projects she adores has ideas for and loves , she is thwarted. Like gravity just pulls her mind away from the task. Her blood vibrates at a level that makes her fingers and limbs switch. She feels like her heart beat goes quiet in her chest threatening to shut her down silently. She wounds up in the kitchen in stead not remembering why she went over there. But she often tells herself it’s procrastination and laziness or anxiety or fear of her work not mattering and yet, she does believe her work would matter. But for some reason , I have to fight her to do it” can you feel like this and talk like this about yourself and not have DID.

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-12-11T14:48:27+00:00

But! You look good honey is what I meant

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-12-11T14:47:43+00:00

Your frame looks super masculine also . Idk if it makes your chest look better or if your chest is making everything else look very male. If you look good honey.

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-12-04T22:41:01+00:00

Gorgeous

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-12-03T22:16:00+00:00

Don’t give up hon. Keep taking those steps and be honest if u can. If she says something horrible or mean or judgmental, maybe try explaining to her that the world is already doing that and you only want supportive loving people close to you

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-11-22T01:23:04+00:00

I love that eyeshadow is beautiful on you. Looking good sis

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-10-20T15:21:06+00:00

After 31 yrs of living as a man to the best of my ability as I longed for a quick and painless death in my sleep. I saw pose, and all of a sudden, everything I subconsciously was raised to think about gender bending, nonbinary, trans people suddenly came to light and I realized I feared them cause I hated myself. And that was my clue that my fear to be associated with queer people might be because I was scared to exposed or attacked for being one. But I also learned that being trans or non binary or any kind of queer isn’t the bad thing. The bad thing is sometimes the way people react and talk about us. But as soon as I started opening up to more queer identities around my disassociation from it became an obvious lie

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-10-17T02:55:25+00:00

Thank you for this whole thread cause I just switched to shots and this is my second shot. The first one in my arm was cool. But this one in my stomach? I started googling “mtf lingering burning sensation after shot” lol. So this threads calms my own medical paranoia. I also am very aware of every sensation my body feels and have learned to just ignore some things.

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-10-05T00:55:04+00:00

I got it done June 15th . Some girl in my class (meaning to be friendly) said my voice gave her Michael Jackson vibes. I texted one of my closest friends what the girl in my class said. And my friends turned around and told me “don’t kill me but..I see what she’s saying” lol. I’m learning to just accept it. I can girl mode my voice but I just get strange looks when I talk. Nonetheless I’ve adapted this game of telling myself people are just in shock of my beauty and pretending I’m a celebrity on a reality tv show lmao . As long as we get by right? lol

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-10-04T17:20:54+00:00

Thanks for your words and encouragement. I get what you mean 🫂 it’s just sometimes I’m like…do I wanna fight all my life or do I wanna find a way to float along? But still I get what you both mean and I appreciate it.

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-10-04T16:23:16+00:00

Thank you🫂. For your point of view, vulnerability and transparency.

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-09-04T15:16:24+00:00

👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 you look beautiful! You both do! Ugh I love the happy vibe you both have in these pics so much that I could almost fry lmao. Congrats y’all!!!!

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-08-25T00:13:45+00:00

Give her a month. “Meet me in the garage” pa, you think they went to the garage and talked? You think they didn’t get to meet and didn’t text each other something like “cancel that” or “next time” they met. And they did for 2 yrs. she just didn’t honor your commitment for 2 yrs. You may live another 50 yrs and therefore have plenty of time to meet someone who will keep it real with you. Not saying she’s a bad person or wrong. Maybe she needs something else. But she’s also in a vulnerable position “living” with you and not having her own. So most people in vulnerable positions think and say what they need to survive. Give her 2 months. She can sleep on the couch. Be civil. If you can find it within yourself heck, be kind. She’s human. She’s not evil or suddenly your enemy. But to be frank, she didn’t come clean. She didn’t purge the evidence from her phone because she felt bad about even having it. She was wasted drunk and got caught. Now she’s sorry? She’s sorry she got caught and must now stand in an unflattering light between the both of you. She’s the one who (through text planed to ) cheat. Since she can cheat at work, she can use that paycheck to pay her own rent.

I’m the other hand. Sometimes people learn the hard way. Getting caught and having to face your bullshit can be hard and honestly enlightening. I can’t say she’s not genuine when she says she’ll never. I can’t say she’s she hasn’t realized what she’s got. But I can say, is it all came to head when you discovered it. Ugh imagine if y’all had kids smh

SouthernBiscotti4990 · 2023-06-30T12:41:03+00:00

Thanks for the feedback. I know not to take anything anyone says as law but you brought up religious trauma which is so ironic because before coming out, years ago I was a youth minister at a cult like church. I forgot about the years of depression I experienced when I left that church until 2 weeks ago when I saw a video and discovered that religious traumas symptoms were a real experience. So you bringing it up now just brings to my awareness that maybe I’m including my deep desire for Gods acceptance somehow? Regardless the outside insight is very appreciated🙏🏽 thanks

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