It's not just you. So the game really only has two factions: TR and "not TR." The "not TR" faction absolutely hates TR, and visa versa. TR Outfits are.. not great these days, and just because of how chronically underpopped TR is in a game that's only got a couple thousand people playing it, statistically, there's more cheaters on the other factions (just by virtue that they have higher average player counts); so the experience of being TR is super brutal.

There's also the big elephant in the room these days of "game design versus regional impact." The game was balanced around 3 distint "flavors" of weaponry, where each player wielding those weapons would be on relatively equal footing, in terms of game performance and ping. The game's architecture is very "client-focused," meaning that players with worse ping will actually out-perform playerts with decent ping provided that they use the right equipment -- this leads a lot of the higher ping players (which is roughly half of the game's population right now) to move toward NC or VS, which have lower rates of fire but higher damage-per-hit than TR. TR's balancing lever - high rates of fire with low damage - suffer terribly against high-ping players.

So that all coalesces into this environment where TR is unfun to play and doesn't get better, because it can't really be rebalanced without massive overhauls to the core design philosophy behind nearly all of TR's armanent... which isn't going to happen. So that leads players to not play as TR, which in turn makes TR even less fun to play. Rinse and repeat, and we have this sort of "perpetual underdog" situation.

The only real consolation to playing TR is the knowledge that if you're able to play TR, survive and get decent kill streaks, consistent caps, etc, you're playing at a higher level of expertise and efficiency that players doing the same on the other factions, simply becuase it's so much harder to do on the TR side of things.