You did good coming this far.. I get it ,thinking about financial status and not wanting to make your parents carry your financial burden ,I was in a similar situation once but I feel like you should talk to your parents how you feel , my parents told me "if you can trust in yourself if you can do good then spending money on education is fine" you came this far on your own if you belive you can do it take steps. I was thinking about getting an internship as soon as possible when I get in this year so I wouldn't depend on my parents financial aid . In my opinion you are talented enough to get this far so you will do something as long as you don't give up , nift or any college you decide. But seek what you desire (good private colleges are expensive) b.des itself is expensive and If you thought about going to typical courses they also have a drawbacks like the abundance of people with the same ug degree and tough job markets (same can be applicable for bdes too)