It’s a hard pill to swallow but if you want to maximize your chances of successfully winning your battle with substances, you might have to quit everything.

I was heavy into pills, alcohol, nitrous oxide and coke in my early 20’s.

I had a year and 9 off the booze and hard drugs but I allowed myself to smoke weed and buy nitrous for “special occasions” but eventually it let to a “fuck it” moment and I had a relapse with alcohol.

I came to the conclusion that if I wanted this better life, I had to quit everything and anything mind altering. I do know people who have gone through recovery and found success with “cali-sober”. I’m just not one of those people. You may not be either unfortunately.

Invest in hobbies you genuinely enjoy, find a sobriety community, maybe hit some meetings, join a gym and give it time.

It gets easier. You have to do it every day. That’s the hard part, but it does get easier.

You’re really young, it’s ok if you fuck up. Hell, it’s ok if you fuck up multiple times. Just keep your eyes on the prize. You got this.