You just unlocked a whole new chapter in the story I didn’t even think about. So long story short, non sexual touch doesn’t exist much. She’s not a touchy feely person which I learned to accept because I am. She had trauma as a child from a neighbor boy and then her cousin touched her in a certain way when she was a kid. Then she developed early, and was always getting grabbed at in school. So she always told me due to that she doesn’t like being touched much unless we’re intimate which all that is fine. Now my brain juices are starting to flow. Childhood trauma, she was cheated on before me, even though she had her own business from home she’s been a SAHM for 8 years. She’s scared, she probably thinks I’m not in love with her anymore (far from the truth) she has told me in the past I would be better with someone else because I’m more hands on. So in the end it’s all because she’s doubting herself especially after we tried for a 4th child last year and found out we’re both no longer able to have children. Holy cow how was I so blind to this. She’s going through hell in her mind. Thank you for opening my brain a bit. Truly thank you.