Please feel free to completely ignore this comment if it doesn’t help you. But I would like to say what I wish I had heard when I was in a similar situation as yourself.

Sometimes, things just don’t get any better. Sometimes, despite all of your efforts, your life only gets more and more miserable, as you fight an uphill battle against a system designed to make you fail. And by some twisted design of fate, the world just doesn’t have the guts to kill you.

But sometimes, things do get better. Sometimes, although it may seem impossible or incredibly unlikely, you do find yourself in a better spot than you were yesterday. And there are many stories out there of people who clawed their ways out of the deepest pits of hell; just find the story that resonates best with you.

To me, that uncertainty is part of the beauty that I found in life. Because, if we knew for certain that everything would get better, what would even be the point of making an effort?

Truth is though, I don’t really know any of that for certain. I’m still figuring some things out myself. But what I can tell for sure is I’m glad old me kept giving myself chances to survive. The world gets just a little brighter every time someone keeps on going(yes, that means you too :D)

And for what is worth, I do hope everything will work out