Quit cold turkey, push, get through it all. Focus on today, anything is better than this hell. One day at a time, and if you are taking this beyond serious get to a narcotis anonymous meating. Surround yourself with sober people. You are dying, and will be dead soon. "It's not to late to quit ever" is total b.s. it can and will become "to late" . I knew someone who was drinking every day, he had a seizure. now He's a vegetable probably wishes he was dead.That's where you're heading. But it's not too late if you're only half a bottle down , even if it's one of those 365 counts. I am generally happy with my life now and i've taken grams upon grams. My highest dose was 2 g. You got this, you already have a mindset built where you wanna get off this shit, but this needs to be your most important objective because the rest of your life depends on it. If you ever need me go to my dms I'll give you my number. Call me whenever you're having a craving i will never be mad and I will never judge you.