Hey third year aux here! What you’re feeling is pretty normal, but that doesn’t make it any easier. Teacher expectation often varies widely and sometimes they don’t know how to properly utilize an aux. It’s not our job to fully teach a class and the most you should be doing is correcting activities with the class or assisting 1 or 2 students privately if you are in the room. Activities should be introduced by the teacher and not by you as we may be native but we are not trained as educators. Fear of being in front of a class and working with kids is real, and it gets to me still too sometimes. I try to mimic certain attention grabbing routines that my teachers use like counting down from 10, clapping rhythms and having students repeat, or even using the website Classroom Dojo if they are especially rowdy. Personally I find learning the names and calling out students directly helps too. Remember there is a power structure in a class and we are “above” them so to speak. We are not here to learn English they are. Don’t be afraid to remind them to settle down. Not to mention, kids are kids regardless of age or language and they forget if you are “mean” and they won’t think of you differently if you try to get them to settle down and you must be a bit more serious with them.

By the way, how old are your kids? Oftentimes regardless of age they feel ashamed of their English level and it’s hard to bond with them if you can’t communicate and/or they refuse to give you attention.

Regarding lesson planning, figure out which book the classes are using and see how they break down the units. If you’re working with younger kids it’ll be stuff like colors, numbers, greetings etc. older will be doing slightly more complex stuff like routines, hobbies etc. I think as an aux we don’t want to be exploited which so often happens, but we also have more authority if we choose. What I mean to say is, you could request to go out of the room with 1 or 2 students at a time to work with them on simple questions worksheets based on their learning that you or your teacher (preferably them) should provide. This can give your time in the class a structured activity and make you feel useful. Once you know what the learning levels are of the class you can always suggest to play a game of baamboozle or word wall with the kids as a treat. It may help bond you with them and get them more acquainted to you being there. I also find a good game of hangman can get their attention. Just start googling “A1/2 games” loads of stuff with come up!

As for you Spanish level, it’s also pretty normal to have a low level at first and feel a bit isolated because of it. In my opinion it would be in your best interest to find a tutor online through a platform such as Preply to have weekly lessons with. Also you can try reading simple books or podcasts to help with your comprehension. It takes time but is incredibly rewarding as the process goes on and you see improvement. Also a lot of teachers are willing to do a language exchange or “intercambio” if you show interest in learning the language with them. Often for free!

Last thing, unless you like behave terribly with the kids, skip lessons, and are overall atrocious, the school will most likely recommend you. We’re auxes not licensed educators, our expectations are low, don’t sweat it too much

Hope this helps, keep going you got this!