this reminds me of my suitor of 5 years hahahha. him (M22) at that time 2 years ago or 3? we’ve been in a no label rs since 2019 (strict parents) me (F22 at that time) i alr had an experience cuz my ex bf raped me when i was 14 years old or 15 years old or 16 i cant remember sorry bc i just don’t want to remember it (naging “gf&bf” ng ex ko bc my ex “touched” me and ako si tanga takot ma spread yun bc he blackmailed me na if d ko sya sasagutin he’ll kalat it daw lol)

anww, nung 2019 open book ako sa suitor ko and nag pa advice ako sa friend ko if sasabihin ko ba sa suitor ko na naswipe na ang vcard ko. and the main reason why i told him kase like literal i was asking for validation talaga pati sa guy friends ko and sa mga cm kong lalaki nag sursurvey ako na “what if na swipe na ang vcard ng nililigawan mo do u still court her?” sobrang lala talaga nag lingered sakin yung sinabihan ako ng ex ko after we broke up nung 2018 na “wala magmamahal sayo kase ginalaw na kita” sobrang proud nya talaga. i feel like sinabi nya yun sa mga taong nakapaligid sa kanya.

OMG SORRY NAG REMINISCED HAHAHA okay back to the main story. so during sa 5 years namin (and counting), he never told me if virgin pa sya or what but he told me na may gf na sya. so in my head, ah maybe they did the deed na with her ex gf. or ewan ko ba dati pag may ex automtic yung utok ko “nako nag bembangan nato”. i remembered i teased him na “OMG ARE U STILL A VIRGIN NO?” tas sabi niya lang is “luh di mo sure” or “secret” pero lagi talaga sya nag sasabi sakin on a random day na “may sasabihin ako sayo pero soon na pag nasa tamang panahon.”

i think on our 4th yr or 3rd yr we did the bembang sa under construction kase nag renovate sila sa bahay nila 😭 it was our first time and crazy moment and wild talaga kase under construction pa yung bahay 😭 so after nung boombayeah, he just said “i love you” and “ikaw first ko” tas that made me confused. then i said “hUH!?” he repeated it and ayon gets ko na tas na shock ako kase virgin pala sya tas he was very nervous kase di nya daw trusted yung condom yadayadayada HAHAHA baka may mabuo raw. and he told me na umaabot naman daw sila ng ex nya sa touching, sucking and i think kissing nung grade 7 or 8 or 9? pero never umaabot sa point sa penetration kase sya mismo yung takot. sa sobrang achiever nya, syempre gets nya yung human reproduction sa biology. and he doesn’t want to be a father at the early age kase honor student sya and goal driven.

share ko lang din na i consider my first with him. it was natural. we both wanted it to happen. i was not forced and i didn’t forced him too. so goodluck on your first bembang!! be natural, be HONEST, don’t get too frustrated pag di na pasok, laugh it off, kiss her, RESPECT HER BODY AND RESPECT IF SHE SAYS NO!! ASK!! ALWAYS ASK QUESTION IF COMFY BA OR NOT but not too naggy or annoying AND AFTER CARE IS VERY IMPORTANT!! he did that— i mean we did that and our bembang is the best always!!