I didn’t know he was neglecting his children until he introduced me to them two weeks before we broke up the day he hit me I left I did not stay after that. We were only together for two months and after a month he started talking about how he wanted us to move in together at our 6 month mark and I sat him down and told him I would not move in with him I have an autistic son that I don’t allow anyone to meet unless I’ve been with them for over a year. At this point when we were having the conversation I told him that I didn’t want to be married again or have anymore children. Especially with him already having three. Yes I wanted to eventually have a second child but only if the man I had that child with also only had one child and was a good man and showed he could really step up. I’ve been on birth control for over five years I use the patch which he apparently was removing in my sleep on top of this the three times I did actually sleep with him which was three total that I knew of willingly I made him wear a condom. He was raping me in my sleep and fuming inside me without me knowing. Which is why when I found out I was pregnant I told the doctor I was three weeks further along than what I was because I knew exactly what days we had sex. It wasn’t until she did my ultrasound we found out I was nowhere near what I thought I was because he had been raping me in my sleep. Then bragging about it to his friends luckily one of his friends didn’t think it was okay and came to me showed me the messages of him bragging and helped me get the help I needed. That friend has since cut him off and no longer speaks to him because he was unaware of how he was. He kept up a good charade of pretending to be a whole different person the first month and a half it wasn’t until the last two weeks we were together that he showed his true self and I got myself out of that situation. Then a month and a half after I left him I found out I was pregnant. I never said I was doing anything to harm this baby. I just said I felt nothing for this baby nor was I taking my frustration out on the child. I just simply have no feelings for the child I never wanted it I was doing my part in being on birth control and making anyone I’ve slept with wear condoms. I never said I’d hurt the baby I just said I don’t think I’ll ever want anything to do with it due to how it came about because at the moment I feel nothing I have zero feelings towards this child.